♥Bedroom Braindump♥

 

Hello everyone hope you all are doing well?

I am doing very well. I have had a few days to gather my thoughts around a few things, so I thought this would be an excellent time to make a blog post. As the title suggests, this will be brain dumb because I feel like I need it.

If this blog post ends up being all over the place, you know why.

I'm still staying at this beautiful hotel. I'm probably going to rent here as long as possible because this is the kind of environment I love!

* Braindump begins*

so a few days ago, I found myself reflecting a lot and lost in my own thoughts in a way I don't know whether it was because so many people were telling me that living in a hotel was kind of weird and that it was expensive, I, of course, defended this by saying well it's my second life. You are not paying the bills for it. Meanwhile, I was thinking, "what if they think I'm weird? what if I am driving people away because I live my second life so realistically?" I asked a friend of mine these questions just to have somebody to "throw a ball to" well, it didn't help that this person said, "to be honest with you, you are kinda weird." That made me sink even deeper into my thoughts, and my mood was beginning to decline.

 

When I started my second life back in 2010, being a dancer and escort was a massive thing, like how people describe second life to other people. Even I started as a dancer, and later, I became an escort for a short period.

how I described second life to other people back then was like this:

"second life is a virtual reality where millions of people connect with each other almost all of the girls in second life or dancers or escorts and every day they keep waiting for their own "Pretty Woman moment" meaning some rich guy comes and swoops them up, and they live happily ever after.

One day one of my friends, that has since left second life, showed me how to bring real-life money into second life, and ever since that day, I have never stepped foot into the world of dancers and escorts ever again.

It was not a bad experience. The thought has crossed my mind a couple of times to start again, but I feel like that time in my life was such a long time ago, and it would be so weird to go back.

When I danced, it was fun, don't get me wrong, but I was craving to do something else. I wanted to have a realistic second life, Not being known as a dancer or an escort because it's just not me.

 The way I live my second life today, almost 12 years after I first started, is absolutely how I would want my second life to be to a 1000% although I would love to not be dragged into a bunch of drama But let's face it, a world without drama in some shape or form does not exist.

I guess I tried to clear my thoughts. Yesterday I was in the gym running on a treadmill. I looked around and saw these two people in the hotel's hallway. They looked like they needed help, so I hopped off the treadmill, and that was up to them asking if they wanted help or not, which they wanted, and I was actually able to help them, so that made me feel excellent.

I went back to the gym, and they started running on the treadmill again when I got this IM from the woman which friend I just helped. Her IM but a smile on my face, we started to talk, I think we talked about five to six hours straight well she needed to go eat dinner so I just like 5 hours or something. We talked about everything you can possibly think of real life, second life, real life,  etc.

We pulled a prank kind of on her second life husband. It was so funny she and I were laughing so hard, and he was like if you can picture a Deer in the headlights because he had just woken up.

Ever since I can remember, I have had this ability to see straight through people if they are genuine or fake, if you know what I mean. Because of that, I find it hard to find friends because they always end up doing something fucked up, resulting in me not wanting to have them in my life.

I have always been the person who advocates having people around you that will lift you up and support you in whatever you want to do. There is no point in you settling for assholes.

 

I hold myself to a very, very high standard because I know what I want and what I deserve.

I wish more people dared to do the same in both worlds.

I mean, sure, there's a lot of people who will hate you because you are doing something they want to do but are too scared to do it. But they're also going to be a heck of a lot more people who will love you because you are genuine and authentic to yourself and others.

Go for the Kings and Queens!

Why go for anything Less?

♥Tessa♥