♥Hypersexuality-the undying desire♥

 I have gone back and forth trying to decide if I should do this blog post because it is personal. It can sometimes be seen as a joke or the person not being believed, but I have decided to speak about this since I do talk about everything else on my blog, so why not speak about this, or why shouldn't I speak about this.

This post will stem from real life, but second Life has a big part, so I will usually blend the two.

Let's start:

No, this is not a joke, and I am not making this blog post funny; I'm actually making this blog post so that people can understand how hard this is to live with. In my early 20s, I got diagnosed with something called Hypersexuality. In simple terms, I am more or less turned on 24/7.

When I tell people about this condition, most say, oh, that must be so much fun, but it isn't. I would say it's sexy and fun 85% of the time, and the rest of the time is frustrating and sometimes painful.

My very first orgasm was actually from a car moving. I don't know if you can imagine every slight vibration or movement of the vehicle stimulating you to the point that you orgasm every 10 to 15 minutes. You are orgasming so hard that your husband must turn to the side of the road, shut off the car, and wait.

I can walk past a guy and immediately start thinking about how it would be to have sex with him, how his body looks without clothing, and how he would seduce me. It doesn't matter if I try to not think about it.

I have at least three orgasms before I get out of bed in the morning, or I can't even think straight. If I were to try to hold off on orgasming before getting out of bed, sex would be the only thing I repeat on my mind, and it doesn't matter if I want it or not.

"Hypersexuality is extremely frequent or suddenly increased libido." 

"Nymphomania and satyriasis were previously used for the condition in women and men, respectively."

"Hypersexuality is known to present itself as a symptom in connection to several neurological disorders."

If you have been reading my blog for a while, you know I have cerebral palsy, a neurological disorder. 

If you haven't read my three-part series about how my disability affects my body, I highly recommend you read that.

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

This will sound crazy, but this is how it is for me. Even food can trigger a sexual fantasy; In other words, it turns me on to the point that that sexual fantasy is the only thing I can think of.

Take chocolate. For example, some chocolates have some kind of cream filling that is white most often, which makes me think of cum and sex.

The sound of somebody whipping up eggs triggers me so on and so forth.

There's a lot of stigma surrounding Hypersexuality because of a lack of information about it. Of course, we have movies that show Hypersexuality as a kink, addiction, or disease. I don't agree with the addiction and disease part at all.

I am not addicted to sex; I just have a massive sex drive, and I don't see it as a disease because I am not dying from it.

How does     SecondLife positively affect my Hypersexuality?

There is no study or information about Hypersexualityy affecting other people in the way I am about to tell you, so I have no research and no proof that this is the case. This is just how I work, I guess.

Second Life has helped me a lot over the years in so many different ways I don't even know where to begin telling that story. But I can tell you that Second Life has positively affected my Hypersexuality because if it wasn't for Second Life, I wouldn't be having this blog, and I wouldn't be writing my erotica.

Me writing my blog in my erotica has helped me to calm down my Hypersexuality in a way. I would say it's like 4% better than before 4% is quite a low number, but I am happy with how I can cope with a lot of the sexual tension and sexual arousal that I have 96% of the day.

Second Life it's very sexual oriented please; that is why it's rated as an adult "game" most of you know that I don't call second Life A "game" Because, in my opinion, second Life is so much more than that, so I called it a virtual world because that is what it is.

 

When I tell people in Second Life I have this condition, most say," oh, that's great. You must have a freakishly amount of sex" I get why people would think that and if I didn't practice self-control, I probably would be having a lot of sex with my husband, but because I practice self-control, we don't have a freakishly amount of sex.

So self-control is a big part of it, but that's also a big part of us not having a lot of sex because my husband doesn't want to have "blue balls."

Comes to Second Life I love having sex; I love everything about it, the closeness, the orgasms, the tension release between two people, everything.

Believe it or not, with the right person, I can easily orgasm 5/6 times without even touching myself, Sometimes even 10 to 11 times.

I don't even have to see the person physically in front of me in Second Life to be able to orgasm. I know this sounds strange to some people, but in Second Life, it's more about what you write to another person than what you do physically if you understand what I mean.

Another thing I have noticed over the years, and I don't know if this has anything to do with my Hypersexuality. Still, The thing is that if a guy in second Life writes to me that he is kissing my neck or something like that, I can actually feel physically what that would feel like. The same goes for anything sexual in Second Life; I can feel it. 

So far, in my 11 1/2 years in Second Life, I have only met one other person that has Hypersexuality. This person is a male, but I am curious to know how many people actually have Hypersexuality. But they just think they have a high sex drive when they could have this condition.

This person I have met really gets me and can say I know what you're going through without lying because he is the same way.

Like I've said before, there is a lot of stigma surrounding Hypersexuality, so many people don't talk about it. I suspect it would be interesting to see how many people would have the criteria for Hypersexuality.

There is a crucial thing to point out, and that is:

Just because I have Hypersexuality does not mean I am a sex robot or don't feel the need for foreplay. You actually do, and you have to turn me on even more before it becomes sexual

don't be an Asshole and go straight to the point just because you think I don't need "warming up."

I am terrified of posting this, but I somehow feel compelled to post it, so please take your time to read it because it is important to me and maybe crucial to others.

♥Tessa♥