˚ ☁️⋅♡Flying on Pink Clouds ‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡

I have always told myself, in one way or another, that I shouldn't settle for anything less than what I'm looking for in Second Life and in people in general. Yet somehow, I have always accepted less, probably because I was so fragmented back then and wanted to please others. It’s cringeworthy to think about it.

 

This year has been very different for me. Instead of chasing after people to talk to me or like me, I have embraced the idea that I will wait for the right people who genuinely want to be with me and spend time around me.

 

It has been incredibly lonely, to say the least, but wow, did the universe listen to me! One day, while in Second Life, I decided to try out a dating app called Thundr. I had been on it sporadically before, but hadn’t found anyone who genuinely piqued my interest or with whom I clicked. A few days went by, and I found myself mostly clicking "next" for profiles that either looked stuck in 2012 or had unrealistic expectations.

 

Then, one evening, I received a message from a man. Before I opened his message, I thought, "Oh, here we go again, someone who just wants to get into my pants and be done with it." However, that was not the case at all; we actually had an enjoyable, flirty conversation. I will call him Kaz for the sake of this post. He talked to me like I mattered, just like he would any other girl.

 

What struck me the most was that he didn't seem bothered at all by the fact that I'm in a wheelchair in Second Life. He saw the wheelchair as just a tool I use to get around, which is how I want people to view it in both Second Life and real life.

 

After some flirtatious conversation, he came over to my house. We talked a little more and even shared a cup of tea. I could feel a spark between us while we were drinking, but I didn’t want to say it out loud for fear of misreading the signals.

 

I was so nervous because, honestly, I hadn’t been with anyone for a long time, and I was unsure about how he would handle me being in a wheelchair, especially if it came to moving to the bedroom.

 

He asked to use the bathroom, and I showed him the way. At this point, I had about a million butterflies in my stomach because I started to realize that this guy genuinely wanted me, and not in a superficial way.

 

When he came out of the bathroom, we continued talking and flirting. Finally, I decided to take a leap of faith; I pulled him closer by his pants, and he didn’t hesitate at all. He looked down at me and, in a soft, yet masculine voice, said, “Hi.”

 

Now, keep in mind that I had never heard his voice before, but as a highly intuitive empath, I could almost sense it. I was blushing so hard that I could barely type, so I just looked up at him and whispered, “Hi” back. Then, he did something that completely surprised me—he made the first move!

 

He placed his hand on my cheek and leaned in closer, and the next thing I knew, we were kissing—full-on, but slow and romantic. Breaking the kiss slightly, he whispered that I have soft lips, and he couldn’t believe that men ignore me. We both smiled during the kiss, and I told him that the fact that people have forgotten me since I switched to a wheelchair is, in a way, a win-win for us.

 

As we continued, clothing began to come off in the hallway, and we moved toward the bedroom. At that moment, I had no idea what to expect; I was going by how others had treated me in similar situations. But I was utterly floored by what he did next, which aligned with what I’ve been saying about staying true to how I move and navigate myself in Second Life.

 

He asked how he could help me get into bed. I communicated this through text, and before I knew it, he picked me up effortlessly, as if he’d done it a thousand times before, and laid me down on the bed. Little moments like that make me feel seen; you can’t beat anything like that when someone truly understands you, even in a virtual space like Second Life. It doesn’t take a lengthy explanation about my disability; it just takes understanding and respect.

I can't even begin to tell you how electrifying and out of this world our sex is/was!

 

 

As most of you know, I have been clinically diagnosed as a nymphomaniac since the age of 20. So I have a sex drive that most people can't even keep up with. This man can! He had me orgasming every 30 minutes. I have never been so close to orgasm blackout in years.

We could barely get loose from each other when it was time for him to go and do something in real life, and when he left, I instantly started missing him, which is something I have never felt for anyone in years in Second Life.

He even started a Discord so we could talk more often. I think the hardest thing about second life is the time zones, but if you really put in the effort, you can make it work. And that's what he did, and that's what I'm doing because I'm so freaking in love with this man, like you don't even understand, this is on a whole other level.

He works a lot, so the time he gets into Second Life is a little limited, I think.

He came home to second life yesterday after we started talking on Discord, and actually, he was the one who said hi to me first. He said hi, baby, which made me smile from ear to ear.

It took him just seconds to climb onto our bed, and for the next 3-4 hours, we went wild together—wild in every sense of the word. During that time, I actually told him I loved him. Most people who take the time to know me understand that I don’t say things I don’t genuinely feel.

 

After those intense hours, we cuddled for a little while and talked. I asked him if he thought it was wrong for me to tell him I loved him. He confidently said no, absolutely not. I replied, “Good, because I do.” Then he said, “I love you too.” He expressed it without hesitation—no “but,” no “if,” and no “it's too early” remarks. It was nothing like that. He said, “I love you too,” and I lay there trying to absorb it all, because I’m so used to being consistently rejected, and this time was different.

 

Before he left for his real-life work, he told me, “I can't wait to see you. Spend more time together, when I have time, I love you.”

 

I can’t even begin to explain how this feels for me. It’s incredible, he actually wants me. He desires me as a woman, appreciates me for who I am, and he stands behind his words—that’s the most important thing.