And then the dark clouds came.

 

Hi everyone, I'm sharing this update because I'm unsure what else to do. If you follow my blog or any of my Second Life social media, you know I've fallen deeply in love with a man—and finally, he feels the same way. Things had been going well, although we hadn't seen each other for a while since he was sick. A couple of days ago, he messaged me to say he would be leaving Second Life until further notice due to a serious real-life emergency. I told him I understood and that I loved him, assuring him I'd wait for him. He didn't respond, and I accepted it, knowing the situation was serious.

However, what caught me off guard was discovering the next day, when I logged into Second Life, that he had removed me from his friends list. I interpreted his message about leaving Second Life as meaning he wouldn't be online for a while, so seeing myself removed from his friends list made me uneasy. I started wondering why he would do that, and the only logical explanation was that he didn't want me to know if he returned. When I checked his calling card, his profile was still active; if he were planning to close his account, it wouldn't be.

I don't know how to feel right now, knowing I'm no longer on his friends list, and I don't see how he would contact me if or when he returned to Second Life. I am really in love with him and miss him deeply, but in a major real-life event like this, everything in your life comes to a halt. I understand that, but I'm very, very sad about it—I would even say borderline depressed because his leaving means I'll be alone in Second Life again. My friends list is now even shorter—about eight people, and honestly, I could probably remove two of them.

He had told me he wanted to meet my friends because he planned to stick around for a long time, but the truth is, I don't really have any friends in Second Life. Heck, I don't even have friends in real life that I consider close. So yeah, I'm very sad and think about him a lot. He still has a Discord, but he would not be writing to me as much, and I don't want to intrude or get in his way.

The sad part is that on the same day he sent me that message, I discovered a new pregnancy add-on for Second Life. This new add-on looks like a real pregnant belly and doesn't have any strange shapes. It even simulates the baby kicking, and you can see it. I had spent the day fixing all of that and was excited to show him what I would look like pregnant and, hopefully, decide together that we would give it a try. Now that I'm alone, I don't really want to be in Second Life anymore. I'd rather be outside creating my recipes, baking, and forgetting about Second Life altogether because it feels pointless now. I have no friends except one—nobody talks to me when I go outside or explore in Second Life. Nobody messages me to chat or say hi.

So yeah, this is where I stand right now. I don't know what to do. I'm debating whether to put on the pregnancy belly to feel a little happiness about something in Second Life, but I'm not sure yet. I feel very, very sad. So, guys, that's the update. Thanks for reading. Bye.