151 days

 Hello everyone!

Jesus, Lord, have mercy! What a complete shitshow! My second life has been since the last time we spoke. It's embarrassing, to be honest, because I should have known better. Let's say that The people should have known that the truth always comes back to me.

I'm not just saying that to tooth my own horn, but it does, and it has never been wrong.

I don't want to get into anyone because, as I said, it is embarrassing.

I don't know what's going on with Second Life at the moment. Every person I try to meet and interact with is shadier than the person I try to meet.

As I have stated before, ever since Second Life launched its PBR, making it very difficult, if not impossible, for a large number of people to be in Second Life, those people have been replaced by total stupidity.

I am the type of person they've always tries to see good people until there is no shadow of a doubt that the person does not have good intentions, And usually, I can see that pretty quickly.

So that has caused me to feel very alone in a world full of people.

Yesterday, I was trying to deal with my feelings. Let's say I looked up somebody's profile, and what I saw floored me, not with sadness or anything but more total rage because of everything I had to go through with this person, even to love them and be with them.

 They are now doing the opposite of what they did when I was with them.

I had to fight to get a picture with them in it, and now they have pictures. This person has told me, “I'm a very private person,” for years, and as I said, I couldn't even get one picture with them without a huge fight.

I was so angry that, against my better judgment, I sent them a message. Yes, I broke the no-contact rule for one minute or less, but I'm not going to start over from scratch because, in my eyes, it was only for one minute, not the entire conversation. That could be wrong, but that's how I choose to look at it. I instantly regretted sending the message because I knew it was exactly what this person wanted from me. They want a reaction.

I'm pissed off At myself, but I also know that they are now wondering a few things.

Of course, I hope Second Life will turn around and be positive for me again. If not, I'll just have to make my connections in a world called reality.

Of course, my second life is not always utterly doomed, even though I'm currently making it seem like it is.

My favorite holiday season is upon us: Valentine's Day. Balloons, roses, and teddy bears slowly appear in Reds, pinks, and whites. It is just so magical!

I love it!

Of course, I have updated my marketplace wish list, so if you want to get me something, please feel free to do so.

Please be kind to each other and take care of yourself!

/Tessa