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Wednesday, April 23, 2025
💔What the Hell happened?💔
That's the question I would like to have answered, trust me.
I have only my gut feeling; otherwise, I have
no clue.
Everything
was so wonderful, perfect, romantic, and loving, but that all changed in the
blink of an eye.
When I went
to pick up my second life husband from the bus station, I was so giddy and
nervous, I couldn't wait to see him.
In the back
of my mind, I had a lingering feeling that something was going to go wrong;
I didn't know what or when, but I just had a sinking feeling.
I decided
not to think about it too much.
He held my
hand the entire car ride home and told me he loved me.
When we got
home, my real-life husband and I walked around the neighborhood while my real-life
husband cleaned up the last few things in our house.
My second-life
husband and I went to the water and shared our first kiss.
The
butterflies in my stomach were so strong, I didn't know what to do with myself.
It was very
romantic.
I returned
home and don't know if it was the shock of the actual size of my house or
something else, but I could feel that something had just shifted.
I had to
prepare him because I don't live in a vast house; it's relatively small. My home would
be like a one-bedroom apartment if you compare the sizes.
We kissed a
lot, and we both enjoyed each other's company, finally
I won't go
into much more detail than that.
We sat in
front of my computer when, suddenly, my second-life husband told me that he did
not feel comfortable with the fact that my real-life husband was meters away
from us, sleeping, and that it felt like my real-life husband had set this up somehow.
He used a sexual term for it.
I just sat
there in shock, unsure of what to say or do, except to tell him that this was not
the case.
When he
said that, I wanted to say,” Well, if you think that way about our relationship
already, then this is over.”
I didn't say it, I just sat there quietly. I
almost started to cry when he asked me if I was OK I nodded, but that wasn't OK
I was far from OK.
We kissed again,
and I tried to put what was said back in my mind, thinking that maybe he was
just nervous.
When I woke
up the next day, my real-life husband had gone to the big house to have coffee,
so my second-life husband and I were alone. I quietly woke him up, asking if he
wanted to cuddle with me in bed. I was not prepared for the answer he gave me.
He said he
was sleeping and just rolled over to his bed.
I have
never felt more unattractive in that moment, I felt like I was the ugliest
woman in the entire world! I felt like I was a woman who had a deadly disease.
I can't explain the feeling other than to say that I felt extremely unattractive.
I started
to silently cry because I knew in that moment that he most likely was never going
to come back.
I even
texted my real-life husband that I was kind of sad because I don't think my
second-life husband is coming back after this.
After a
little while, my second life husband called out of bed and went to the bathroom.
Once again, he asked him to come and lie down on the bed with me, but he didn't
do that again.
I took my
phone and texted my second-life husband on Discord, asking if everything was OK
between us.
He said yes,
they are. I knew he was lying to me; I could feel it with every bone in my body.
I wanted to cry most of that day, to be honest, but I didn't. I wanted to cry
because everything was so different between us.
That
Saturday evening all my fears and the feelings of rejection was confirmed
because he didn't even want me to touch him in that way anymore, he gave me
some Bull shit excuse that he was not feeling well.
I still
wanted to hold out hope, but everything in my body said he was not returning.
On the
Sunday when I left him at the bus station, he said, “I will see you in May,
maybe.”
In my head,
I was going,” Why would you say that when you told me that you want this to
continue and you want this to keep going? Why would you say maybe?”
When my
second life husband got on the bus I broke down sobbing I was sobbing so hard
that I couldn't even get the words out to my real life husband At first but
after a little while I was able to say to him” he's not coming back, he's not
coming back I know it”
My
real-life husband, of course, tried to console me and talk to me about things
that I was feeling.
The
ghosting started slowly.
With him
not responding to me for a few hours, which was very unusual because we had
this relationship where we spoke to each other almost on a minute-by-minute
basis when we could
I didn't
think much of it.
Then he
started talking to me differently, typing to me differently, not being as
affectionate or attentive as he used to be.
I would
type to him on Discord, but he would not respond for six or seven hours.
SIX OR
SEVEN HOURS, People!
On April 17, 2025, he sent me a message saying that he was working and was stressed. That's the last message that I ever got from him.
I told my real-life
husband what my now ex-second-life husband had implied when he was here.
My real-life
husband responded with “So what does he think that polyamorous is all about?"
“It's about
having full-blown relationships with other people without hesitation or holding
back.”
My real-life
husband is furious that my now ex-second-life husband even came up with that idea.
He also
said, “Now I know what he's doing, he's ghosting you because he can't be man
enough to tell you that this was not something he was comfortable with.”
“I am furious
because he told you things that you took
straight to your heart, and now he's just stomping on it like you never existed
in the first place.”
I've tried
calling him, I've been attempting to text him, I've wanted to talk to him on Discord, and
I've tried everything in my power to get any sign of life from him. I even
texted his mother, but I still haven't received a response.
My real-life
husband even said,” I've heard about ghosting before, but this level of
ghosting? Like dropping from the face of the earth kind of ghosting? I have
never seen or experienced in my entire life.”
Today, April 23, 2025, I sent him the very last text message.
I removed him
from my apartment in Second Life, removed him from my rental boat in Second Life,
removed him as my partner in Second Life, removed him from my friends list in Second Life, and removed him from my Discord.
I took him
off everything.
I have
never felt so empty as a woman, and I have never felt so unattractive as a
woman.
Tuesday, March 18, 2025
We Found Love in a hopeless place.
Hello everybody, long time no see, I know, but boy, I have the update for you!
So the last time I did an update, it was in a very sluggish and dull place, and to be honest with you, I was on my way out the door when it came to second life because I felt that no matter what I did or said to anyone they couldn't understand me and my feelings. I was going through the very thick of it when it came to trying to deal with leaving the abusive second-life relationship I had been in.
But life threw
me a lifeline when I needed it the most.
One day, I
was lying on a beach and enjoying life in my very sexy Swedish bikini. I
received a few IMs, mostly from men who did not interest me at all, so
I looked at the messages and closed them immediately.
But then
there was one man who caught my eye because he used his brain when talking to
me, which is a rare occurrence for a second life.
He asked me
a little bit about nymphomania and how it presented itself to me. I smiled when I saw his message because it was an honest question.
What blew
my mind was the fact that he is also from Sweden! I was smiling from ear to ear,
and I hoped that he wouldn't say something that would immediately turn me off
towards him.
We started
talking, and we laughed a lot, and for the first time in years, I felt like I actually “saw me.”
The
conversation continued, and I realized I was falling hard and fast for this
man. Of course, I was afraid because I had been through hell the past three
years in my second life, but I have never held back my
feelings just because I was scared or anything like that.
Mostly, I
was afraid because it had always been a one-sided situation regarding second
life. I would be in love with the person, but the person was not in love with
me.
We talked,
and I invited him over to my towel that I was lying on. As we continued to talk
about anything and everything, we eventually made love on that beach.
It was so intense that I think both of us had trouble typing, and I had shaky
hands.
When I tell
you this man is romantic? This man is the epitome of that word.
He loves
everything about me and is unafraid to say or show it.
He wants me
to be all over him; he wants me to be clingy. He wants me to be needy. He wants
me to show everything I have because he loves it, and I love everything about
him, every single millimeter of his human being I am devoted to.
That night
when we first met? Oh my God! I have never felt attraction like that in my life.
It was
unbelievable, and I now understand what people mean when they say “divine timing” because he is everything I have ever asked for and more.
It didn't
take long before he gave me the happiest shock of a lifetime.
We were lying
in bed one night, and he carefully said, “So, have you ever been married
in your second life?”
I explained to him that I had been married, but I never considered that a marriage because the person was never in a second life after that.
Slowly and
carefully, he asked me to marry him. I was in complete shock; I didn't know what
to say. I just stared at him with the most enormous eyes I could ever make
before telling him with a lump of tears in my throat to not joke with me.
He looked into my eyes and said I promise I'm not joking with you. I swear I'm
not.”
I lost it, I started bawling my eyes out, and I began to realize he was not joking. With
tears in my eyes rolling down my face, I slowly started to nod yes.
He grabbed
my face and kissed me in a way I had never been before, and he still does.
From that
moment, I decided I only wanted him, no one else. I was done looking; I had
found my other half.
The day
after his proposal, we started talking about meeting each other in real life, and
that is precisely what we will do about two weeks from now.
This man is
everything I've ever wanted, and it's like he had been tailored for me.
We have that kind of love that you can't explain in words. You can feel it; you can almost touch it in our presence. Before I met him, I was so used to people wanting me when it was convenient for them, but this man is truly amazing. He ensures that our connection is taken care of daily by writing to me, even if it is just two seconds when he is busy. Of course, I do the same for him.
We can't be apart for more than a few hours, but we still stay in constant contact to show each other that we love one another.
There is no
saying hello, and then you have to wait six hours for the other person
to realize they should respond.
Our love
connection is the most important for both of us.
On the 7th
of March 2025, we said yes to each other in a very quick and casual ceremony at
the Yosemite sim. Here is the LM
We both wanted to get married as soon as possible, we might have something
more extravagant as a wedding in the future.
We also didn't
waste any time trying to conceive. As I write this, I am eight weeks
pregnant with our first child; yes, we both know we want more.
Why did this happen so quickly? Is my weight on something so obvious that it's
meant to be? Why wait on anything just because society and others might
have an opinion? Other people's views do not have any bearing
whatsoever on your relationship with the person.
Ever since we met, we have taken so many pictures together, putting them up on our primfeed for the world to see primfeed it's about 98% sexual content now, but we do have some pictures that are just cute and fun because we both want to show off each other to the world.
*Sighs* god, the way this man makes me feel!
I really can't wait to live the rest of my life with him♥
/Tessa
Wednesday, February 5, 2025
151 days
Hello everyone!
Jesus, Lord,
have mercy! What a complete shitshow! My second life has been since the last
time we spoke. It's embarrassing, to be honest, because I should have
known better. Let's say that The people should have known that the truth always
comes back to me.
I'm not
just saying that to tooth my own horn, but it does, and it has never been wrong.
I don't
want to get into anyone because, as I said, it is embarrassing.
I don't know
what's going on with Second Life at the moment. Every person I try to meet and
interact with is shadier than the person I try to meet.
As I have
stated before, ever since Second Life launched its PBR, making it very
difficult, if not impossible, for a large number of people to be in Second
Life, those people have been replaced by total stupidity.
I am the
type of person they've always tries to see good people until there is no shadow
of a doubt that the person does not have good intentions, And usually, I can
see that pretty quickly.
So that has
caused me to feel very alone in a world full of people.
Yesterday,
I was trying to deal with my feelings. Let's say I
looked up somebody's profile, and what I saw floored me, not with sadness or
anything but more total rage because of everything I had to go through
with this person, even to love them and be with them.
They are now doing the opposite of what they
did when I was with them.
I had to
fight to get a picture with them in it, and now they have pictures. This
person has told me, “I'm a very private person,” for years, and as I said, I
couldn't even get one picture with them without a huge fight.
I was so
angry that, against my better judgment, I sent them a message. Yes, I broke the
no-contact rule for one minute or less, but I'm not going to start over from
scratch because, in my eyes, it was only for one minute, not the entire
conversation. That could be wrong, but that's how I choose to look at it. I
instantly regretted sending the message because I knew it was exactly what this
person wanted from me. They want a reaction.
I'm pissed
off At myself, but I also know that they are now wondering a few things.
Of course, I hope Second Life will turn around and be positive for
me again. If not, I'll just have to make my connections in a
world called reality.
Of course,
my second life is not always utterly doomed, even though I'm currently making
it seem like it is.
My favorite
holiday season is upon us: Valentine's Day. Balloons, roses, and teddy
bears slowly appear in Reds, pinks, and whites. It is just so
magical!
I love it!
Of course,
I have updated my marketplace wish list, so if you want to get me something,
please feel free to do so.
Please be
kind to each other and take care of yourself!
/Tessa
Monday, January 13, 2025
129 Days
That's how
long it's been since I walked out the front door and never looked back. The
first 30 days were the hardest for me, and after the 60-day mark, I barely gave
him a second thought. That's why I haven't updated it. I'm over the worst
hurdle, if that makes sense.
I have
enjoyed myself quite a lot and being alone in my own space; if somebody had
told me that about six months ago, I would have told them, “I will never be
that kind of person who is OK with being alone.”
Looking
back on what I have been through, being on my own is a fucking breath of fresh
air.
In an
attempt to regain some of the confidence that he chipped away at, I have been
dressing up in outfits that I know he wouldn't approve of and going to places with
many people. I stand around and take in the compliments I get on my body shape
and look.
I call it “body
exposure.” I don't know if that's an accurate term, but when I tell people
that's what I'm doing, they seem to understand.
It has helped
me to bloom again and not be so locked in my head hearing his voice telling me
I shouldn't do this or I shouldn't do that.
I have
enjoyed meeting some interesting people and some not-so-interesting and
enjoyable people. Those people have found my front door quickly because I am
completely and utterly done with wasting my time with people that are complete bullshit.
It still
amazes me to this day how people can genuinely not understand that I see
straight through people; it's like when a person tries to tell me a lie that is
so crystal clear it's a lie they don't even understand that I see it or they
think that they have just “fooled me."
Only to
realize I was one step ahead of them when they tried to talk themselves out of
the lie.
I find it
somewhat amusing.
How is how
is motherhood?
It is terrific
that my daughter turns 13 months old tomorrow!
The time
has flown by so fast that I'm actually thinking about getting pregnant again,
but I haven't really decided on that fully.
I have met
someone who makes me feel special and loved. We are both Polyamorous, so we
understand each other from the start.
One thing
that I promised myself when I got out of that relationship I was in was that I
was going to make it painstakingly apparent to people that I Am polyamorous so
that it could not be mistaken.
My profile
is perhaps a little bit too blunt, but I would rather be too blunt than have
misunderstandings from people who don't read no at all.
That is it
for my 129-day update.
I hope every
one of you is doing well and they mean your life to its full potential
take care
of yourselves, and I will talk to you later/
Tessa