I'm still here

  Hi everyone, Tessa, I know it's been a long time. I am here now, so let's get right into it.

In my last blog post, I shared with you the incredible surge of positivity that has transformed my life in ways I never thought possible. My life is moving at a thrilling pace, and I'm savoring every moment.

As for my second life, it's a whole different story.

My love life, everything that that entails pretty much been shit.

I tried getting back with my daughter's father, but we all know the story of that by now; it was good for a little bit, but then it became shit again.

I swear my connection with this person has felt like a never-ending carousel, with its ups and downs, twists and turns, and the constant feeling of being in motion but getting nowhere.

It has been back and forth for three years, and I am very much to blame for it because it was amazing when it was good with him. A few days ago, something finally made me realize it was better for me to be alone now. Hopefully, that will change, but I am not in a hurry. I am dizzy from being on a carousel for the past three years.

I have pretty much gotten used to being logged into Second Life and having it on in the background. I do other things because nothing is exciting going on in Second Life at the moment for me. I am hoping that will change.

I have also noticed that the number of people active in Second Life has gone down dramatically these past couple of months. People are finding that going out into the world is better than being stuck at home in front of a computer connected to virtual reality.

With Second Life being so quiet right now, I have actually taken up a new hobby—a hobby that I never thought I would be interested in, but then again, I am a writer, so it's not that far of a jump.

I have taken up reading books, and I mean physical copies, because I'm not going to do the digital reading thing if I'm going to read anything.

I'm reading This particular category of books; it is books with highly sexual content. As I am hoping a few of my readers know by now, I am hypersexual, so books with highly sexual content are right up my alley. I can tell you right now that I regret not getting into this hobby sooner because the amount of ideas and dirty fantasies for my erotic writing is “holy mother of God” type of amount and things.

Speaking of sexual content, I have been working on a new erotic story, so keep an eye out for that!

Motherhood is incredible! My daughter is eight months old now. It's wild to me that time has gone by so fast!

Every moment with her is filled with absolute joy, and I feel an indescribable connection to her that I never knew was possible.

I feel very strongly about being a mother in my second life. Maybe it's because I have chosen not to have kids in my first life. It's not that I don't want them; it's quite the opposite, but I have chosen not to be selfish. My first-life husband's health comes before having a baby. That is all that I am going to say about that.

To do a little summary of everything;

my first life is moving positively in the right direction that I wanted to go.

My second life is very slow, sluggish, and dull at times, But I am still along for the ride.

I hope that you, as my reader, are still along for the ride as well, although the blog posts are few and far between.

/Tessa