Motherhood so far.

 Hello everyone. I am exhausted but delighted and content Tessa here.

The Blackwood household had a very early start to our morning with a baby girl waking up around three times a night so far; I know I shouldn't complain because I know that there are babies out there that refuse to sleep all through the night, so I am very appreciative that my baby girl only wakes up three times a night so far.

I am still trying to get to know my daughter. I know that sounds strange because I had her in my tummy for around eight months. But what I have learned so far is that from the day she was born, I had to get to know her all over again and listen to her sounds and realize that not every time that she makes a sound or cries is a time when she desperately needs me sometimes she babbles away being very content, so I have to tell my mother instinct that "she is fine just give it a few moments before rushing over there."

I woke up to her making lovely sounds on my baby monitor. Still, soon after the sweet sounds, she started to cry, which is a beautiful sound by itself, so I got up. I fixed my hair before entering her bedroom, told her good morning, picked her up, and walked around before settling into my breastfeeding chair. I usually breastfeed her for about 1 1/2 hours each time she needs to feed. During that time, I felt the closest to my daughter; I stroked her face and whispered, making her feel calm.

After I breastfeed her, I change her diaper, and with a hot, soapy washcloth, I make sure to gently wipe her face because if she is going to turn out anything like me, I know for a fact that she does not like Her eyes being a little bit clogged with what I call tired ice.

After I changed her diaper and wiped her face, it was time for a quick bath. I discovered that my daughter does not like water, which is not precisely body temperature. I don't know if that's a newborn thing or just her thing, but yeah.

After we both got ready for the day, I decided to take her out for the first time. Boy, was that an experience. People didn't say anything to me straight out, but we could feel them looking and smiling, and of course, some people were annoyed by the fact that there was a crying baby in a store.

I tried to finish my shopping as quickly as possible because she was not settling down and being happy in her car seat, so I had to do the "new Mama sprint" all over. When we got home, I quickly got her out of the car seat and changed her into a onesie And socks, which seemed to be the outfit she was most comfortable in now.

I took her downstairs and put her in her mamaroo in front of our TV to see how She would react. At first, she had this look on her face like, "Ummm. Mommy, what is this thing?" Of course, I just smiled and strapped her in. As soon as I turned on the mobile above her head, she became very content and relaxed, which pleased me because I could have some time to myself but still be with her.

While I was out on the town, a package arrived. Yeah, I looked in my inventory, and one of my friends, whom I have known for years and years and years, bought me a breast pump. Yes, there is such a thing in second life. I jumped for joy because about 24 hours earlier, I had contemplated buying it myself but held off on it.

When my daughter was happy and content with her Mamaroo, I decided to turn on the TV and watch the cartooned motion of Beauty and the Beast to see how my daughter would react to sounds and music.

Just before I turned on the TV, she was a little fussy trying to find her place even though she was content, but as soon as I turned on the TV, she calmed right down and just started to hang out.

I decided to be on the sofa and pump my breast milk even though I breastfeed her, I just wanted to know what it felt like, and I know for a fact that my breasts produce a lot of milk, so I thought to myself, it can't hurt to pump out a little to give my breasts a little bit of the break.

So my daughter and I happily watched Beauty and the Beast, hanging out and enjoying our time together, being very peaceful.

I don't know if this is realistic, but I did pump my left breast for about an hour and then my right breast for about an hour.

This breast pump is fantastic because it has realistic sound and everything, and I love it when something is interactive and has natural sounds.

There's one thing I do with this breast pump; as far as sizing goes, I don't think it's very realistic, so I would rather have it a bit smaller than what it is, but it's a beautiful product nonetheless.

As the movie ended, I was amazed that she was still awake. I left the movie running because it had a beautiful song at the end; when the music was over, I looked over, and she had fallen asleep calmly. Every time I look at her, I still can't believe that I was a part of growing her, and now that she's here, I can't take my eyes off her.

 

As of right now, she is still sleeping. That's why I can take this little time to myself and blog. Motherhood in Second Life is one of the most rewarding and uplifting experiences I have had in second. Life, if you haven't entirely understood it yet, I will repeat it: second life is not about role play for me; it's not a game to me; it's a virtual reality, so everything I do is taking life it's real to me it's not just play however I do respect people that do you see this as a game or a role-playing thing but for me it will never be a game or a role-playing thing.

/Tessa