♥And just like that....A new adventure begins.♥

If you read my last blog post when I first posted it, you will be thinking that you are seeing double right now, but you are not wrong. I included this in my last blog post, but I felt like I wanted to dedicate this experience two its own blog post.

I'm still living at the best hotel there is in second life, but at the moment, I'm kind of going back and forth, and you will understand why soon.

It was a typical morning at the hotel about, I would say, two weeks ago, maybe I don't really know. But I had this feeling that something was going on with my body, but I couldn't add my finger to it. So I'm going about my daily routine putting in whatever, when I stopped in my tracks when it hits me "Oh my God! what if I am pregnant?"

as soon as that struck me, a million emotions started going through my head and through my body:

happiness

fear

joy

excitement

sadness

happiness

fear

joy

excitement

Anxiousness.

I feel butterflies in my stomach. My brain feels like it's about to explode.

I sit down at my computer, searching the Internet for the best pregnancy test. Not that they are hard to figure out, but I only go for the best of the best.



It feels like I barely had time to blink before a knock at my door. It's the delivery guy.

"Hi, miss blackwood, here is your order." He smiles as I gently grab the bag.

I'm thinking to myself, "if you only knew what you or bring me."

Instead, I say out loud, "Thank you."

the guy smiles and says, "have a good day, miss!"

I gently nod and close the door quietly.

My hands were shaking as I grabbed the pregnancy test box from the paper bag.

I look at the box, breathing deeply as I open it taking out the instructions.

"option one: Collect a urine sample within a dry container, put the pregnancy test in for 10 seconds,

wait three minutes."

"Option 2: pee on pregnancy test midstream wait three minutes."

My head is still growing a million miles a second. I decided to go with option one. I do as the instructions say. and I quietly say to myself, "This will be the longest 3 minutes of my life."

When I finally managed to calm down enough, I sent a photo to one of my partners. He is extremely, extremely close to me, and he is the one I call my husband even though we are not officially married in second life because I don't want to be a tied down to anyone, and I don't want him to feel like he is tied down to me.

He called me back not even five seconds after I sent the photo. I can hear him holding back the tears as he says," is it true, baby?" are you pregnant, really?"

I burst into tears when he asked me, and I finally answered,

"yes, it's true, baby. I'm pregnant."

"I'm pregnant, baby."

as soon as I say yes, he is unable to hold back the tears

"Oh my Jesus Christ, Oh my God, baby! Oh my God!"

"I was in a meeting, but I just had to call you. I almost lost it when I saw the photo."

(My partner was at home when I sent him the photo, but he had people around him in his real life, so he couldn't really express his happiness the way he wanted to, but this is how I believe he would have reacted if he was alone in real life. because I know him that well.)

My partner speaks through his sniffles.

"I love you, baby! I love you so much! I love you! Do you hear me? I love you!. I have to go now. I have to get back to the meeting, and I'm guessing I have to answer many questions about why I am teary-eyed and puffy."

I say through my own sniffles.

"I love you too, baby, I love you! Yes, I hear you. I love you too."

We laugh about his comment about going back into the meeting.

My partner says once again, "I love you, baby. I'll see you both when I get home."

I smile a little, saying, "I love you too, and I miss you."

We hang up the phone, and I find myself staring at the test, thinking about the next nine months.

I put my hand on my stomach, looking down at my belly softly, saying," here we go, little one."

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I have been pregnant before in second life. Believe it or not, I was pregnant back to back during the first three years of my second life. Because I enjoyed it so much. I can't put into words how much I actually enjoyed my pregnancies.

Second life has evolved so much over the years when it comes not only when it comes to pregnancies and the realism behind them but so much more.

The number one reason I haven't been pregnant for so many years in second life, even though I genuinely enjoy it from the bottom of my heart, is that it's so expensive!

To me, the cost of everything is mind-blowing! But I missed it so much over the years. I think I am finally at a place where I can really enjoy it this time and now think about the cost or problems or whatever it may be when it comes to having a baby inside

the big close second reason I haven't gotten pregnant sooner in second life is the fact that I did my very first three pregnancies alone. And I am a person that lives my second life very, very realistically, so I did 9 months of real-lifetime pregnancy every single time.

yes, people thought I was crazy, but it was realistic

and to be honest, with me being premature, I can tell giving people the weird eye look when they say, "oh, I'm only going to be pregnant for 9 weeks" of course, I don't tell them this, but when I hear stuff like that I'm thinking to myself "well you could just skip being pregnant then."

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So let's skip forward a little bit. I am seven weeks pregnant today, and I took a pregnancy test to be sure haha.

Seven weeks pregnant is also special to me because that should mean that I should hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time, so I bought a home Doppler from a maternity clinic here in second life. I have had it before, but I lost my copy of the Doppler, and I can't get in touch with the boss of the clinic to give me a new copy, so I just repurchased it.

I'm going in between the hotel and my second life premium Linden lab home because I can't really live in the hotel with the baby. After all, they are so limited on prims. I also don't want to contribute to the lag of the hotel. I personally haven't really experienced any problematic lagging issues. Still, if you walk in there with a highly scripted baby, it will lag the place down for those experiencing lag.

I will try to share a little clip with me listening to the heartbeat when I have figured out how to remain lying down when I wear the Doppler because right now, it is standing me up when I put it on, and that's not very realistic I would much prefer if I would remain lying down.

If you are still reading this, thank you for making it this far, and thank you for being a faithful supporter. I would love to hear from you all, so please leave a comment, and I will as soon as I can!

♥Tessa♥