♥9 weeks today♥The family center.♥

Wow! I can't believe I'm 9 weeks pregnant already! to be honest with you, the pregnancies I have had in the past, the first few weeks were absolute pain because he seemed to get by so slow. I started to have morning sickness when I was around 7 1/2 weeks, and boy, I did not miss that part. Still, I genuinely believe that the first few weeks have been an absolute breeze to get by because I am so happy and content.

The big thing for me when it comes to pregnancy this time around is that I'm not alone. I am sharing this with somebody finally, and it makes me so happy I can't even describe it in words. Yes, I know it sounds cheesy, but hey, I love cheese, so why not.  

Another massive factor in why I'm so happy with this pregnancy is switching to ebody Reborn. I cannot tell you how badly you must try the ebody reborn. If you are tired, I'm trying to make the belly look right during pregnancy in second life.

The sliders work perfectly, and the belly does not look like a weird alien. Of course, you have to adjust your shape a little bit, but it's amazingly perfect for pregnancy!

The first few weeks of my pregnancy, I spent researching for the best maternity clinic in second life. During my first two pregnancies in second life, I went two a maternity clinic but let me tell you, it's not worth the lindens. Hence, in all of my other pregnancies after that, I basically had a home birth by myself because I realized that what they were doing and what they were getting paid for I could literally do by myself.

I even went back to a maternity clinic where I used to work just to see if anything had changed over the years. The only thing that had changed was the ridiculous pricing and some staff. First of all, if I wanted to have my baby at their clinic, I would have to buy a package, but then on top of the package I would have to buy a hud that is around 5000 lindens Because that hud connects equipment automatically, I didn't have the hud I couldn't Have them as my clinic. I already knew that I would not go with them as my clinic because it's totally ridiculous.

 

In second life, you have this conception hud. There are several, but this is the easiest one to use. It's called Mama-Allpa, so I went into that group chat and asked if there was a doctor that could do a very early ultrasound on me. And the doctor responded that if I go to the Mama-Allpa main store, there is a bulletin board of sorts with all the certified doctors to work with Mama-Allpa.

So I went there, and I found the most fantastic clinic with the most incredible doctor, and because I am using the Mama-Allpa, I don't have to pay for her services. It's totally free; my jaw dropped when I heard that from her.

The clinic I signed up with is the family center.

and my dr is Dr. Morrigan Horten ( I believe she is the boss.)

if you have the Mama-Allpa And do you want to get in contact with her, the easiest way is to go to the Mama-Allpa main store and find her on the Bulletin board

The family center is certified for the following 

Mama-Allpa

Hands-on Momma

❤Momma (Love Momma)

Eden RolePlay system.

Pediatrics for Funsies.

My first appointment is on the 2nd of May 2022, but I have already gone over there to peek around to get the feel of the place, and I absolutely love it. I also signed up for yoga, which I am so excited about!

While I was sneak peeking around, I actually bumped into my doctor!

She ended up showing me around the place. I got to go into the different birthing suites and the exam rooms. It is so realistic I had to basically just stand there and take it all in because I have never seen anything like it in my 12 years of being in second life. 

Here are a few words from Dr. Morrigan Horten herself!

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I'm a semi-retired homebirth midwife IRL, and I train Doulas."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I've been doing obstetrics in SL for 15 years."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I've been certified with Mama Alllpa for over 10 and am a certified educator and examiner for the system."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I love folks having as close to a realistic experience as SL can afford while making sure it's very positive."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: many folks have babies in SL to recover from a bad rl experience. I help many find a positive closure."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: we don't do high risk here as I don't believe in recreating birth trauma."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I help guide folks through what is called a "Happy Path.""

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The vibe of the sim where the clinic is in the mountains of Southeast New Mexico.

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This little framed Board represents all of Dr. Morrigan Horten's babies that she helped enter this world THIS YEAR. Yes, just 2022!

I just feel so happy in this pregnancy. Everything is falling into place. There is nothing that I'm worried about or annoyed about. I'm just thrilled this time, and the fact that I happened to stumble on this beautiful clinic takes the pregnancy to a whole different level for me.

Please go to the family center if you want to have your baby in a calming, realistic environment.

You won't regret it.

My appointment is not for another week, but to be honest with you, I couldn't help myself, so I bought a home Doppler just to hear the baby's heartbeat when I was seven weeks. I know that that's a bit early, but I couldn't wait, so if you click play on the little video clip, you will hear my baby's heartbeat.

Link to home Doppler 

some info about when you can first hear a baby's heartbeat if you want to use the doppler realistically 

You can start hearing the baby's heartbeat as early as 6 1/2 to 7 weeks.

Another reason why I'm so excited to do this pregnancy is because of accessories like this look at this cute mummy bag. Have you seen anything cuter and anything more perfect than this? I mean, this is queen status!

this screams,” Yes, I am a mom, and/or I'm pregnant, and I'm The queen!"

Mommy bag from Movement 

75 Lindens offer! The 23rd of April 2022.

All I can say is that I am so over the moon.

Of course, I will blog after my first doctor's appointment, and I will also show you the baby if I get an ultrasound picture♥

♥Tessa♥

🌺Nesting🌺

 Hi, everyone hope you all are doing well?

I am doing great, thank you for asking.

There's absolutely gorgeous weather in Sweden today. The sun is shining brightly, and there's a blue sky. I don't know about you, but a day like today makes me feel energized. I love it, so I have spent a little time away from The keyboard today.

But I have gotten a lot of stuff done in second life today. Also, I found this fabulous sale going on; it's called Spring Sidewalk Sale.  I stumbled on it by accident. 

There are so many stores participating. It's incredible. It's like the vendors keep on coming.

One vendor, in particular, had me really spending money, but because this is a sale event, the money spent wasn't a lot.

The store is called old world and help the most beautiful food and garden things I've seen in a long time in second life so I bought some bits and pieces and I even bought my own vegetable garden which I have wanted for so long, but I haven't been able to find one that looks good enough for me to use it.

She has different fruit baskets, such as pies and bread and small platters with fruit on them, but the only downside is that it's just decorations or items you can hold. If you click them, it won't give you anything, which is sad because everything is beautiful.

I enjoyed buying her stuff so much that it sent me into “nesting mode” I am currently 8 weeks and one day today, And tell you how excited I am to experience this pregnancy in second life. It just feels so right this time. I don't know how else to explain it, but it just feels right. I think a lot of it has to do with the reborn body. Like I have said in my previous post, This body has made me feel like myself 100%. Over the years, I have thought that I felt like myself in other bodies that I have used, but the reborn body has really connected me with what I look like in second life. It does not just fit me to about 80%. It fits me 100%. I am so comfortable when it comes to looking at myself in second life and knowing that the way I look in second life is 100% reflecting me in my real life.

I hope you understand what I mean.

I go for my first ultrasound on the 2nd of May 2022 at 10 weeks. Generally, you don't go for an ultrasound before that because there's not that much to see before 10 weeks, but I had sneakily done an ultrasound when I was six weeks pregnant.

I need your thoughts and opinion on this. Would you, as my readers, like to see the ultrasound pictures, or do you think that that would be too much for you? I live my second life very realistically, so I have and will have ultrasound pictures.

I took a cab home from the spring sale, and as soon as I got home, I had this overwhelming urge to bake stuff And make food in general. So instead of my kitchen in second life just looking pretty, I decided to use it because I have one of those interactive kitchens that are interactive, and you can actually cook some food in the kitchen.

I was telling you about the breadbasket and the pie I bought from the old world store at the beginning of this post, so I just “heated” the pie for a little bit in my oven. I will do the same with the bread when I need some.

The cookies on the sheet pan I actually baked in my oven! 

I'm so proud of myself!

You know what? After I'm done writing this post, I am going over to the old world store to see what else I can get my hands on because I'm nesting! Yes, that's my excuse!! Haha.

*sighs Happily* 

I feel so calm and content. You know that everything falling into place kind of feeling? That is what I'm feeling right now in both worlds.

Please leave a comment if you want to but also, please leave a comment regarding the ultrasound pictures so that I know where you stand on that.

♥Tessa♥

♥ It does not get any better! Nylon Outfitters♥

 No, this is not sponsored in any way, shape, or form. I love this store, and it needs to be hugely recognized, so I'm doing my part.

I barely don't know where to start with this post because the creator behind this store and the quality are out of this world. I can guarantee you you have never seen anything like it in second life. 

I stumbled across this store a few months back when I was looking for something new to wear. It didn't matter if it was new hair or a new outfit. I just wanted something new to wear that wasn't what everybody else was wearing at the time.

 I came across  Nylon Outfitters Because I found one of her sculpted hairs at an event.

Now I understand that when you hear the word sculpted hair, your mind immediately returns to it in 2009 Because everybody is so stuck that on everything has to be mesh in second life. After all, Sculpted hair is an old thing when it comes to second life. BUT I CAN FUCKING Guarantee You have not seen sculpted hair like this before.

Sometimes it's actually a good thing that I am in a wheelchair because when I saw this hair, I'm pretty sure that if I wasn't in a wheelchair, I would be lying on the ground unconscious!

I dare you to take one look at that photo and not want it.

When I first started second life, the mesh was not a thing. We had Flexi hair and clothing layers that you would just click and would be pasted onto your body. That style of clothing is now called bakes on mesh.

90 to 95% of the bakes on mesh clothing look absolutely horrible!

I know what you're thinking. It's like going back to 2009 - 2010 but let me tell you, this girl and this store are throwing you right back into 2022.

YES. What you see above is bakes on mesh lingerie clothing.

It's absolutely phenomenal! Phenomenal!!!!

Quality is unlike anything I've ever seen in my 12 years of being in second life.

Do you want to see how it looks on me? *Mischievous smile*

Nylon Outfitters will forever be my number one go-to for unique hairstyles and bakes on mesh clothing, especially lingerie.

♥Tessa♥

♥ GoodBye KUPRA!....Hello Ebody Reborn!♥

 This is a blog post that I've never thought I would do in a million years, but here we are.

Not too long ago, a new body was launched into second life called eBody Reborn. I have been a hardcore INITHIUM kupra user since it came out back in October 2020. I have seen a lot of bodies being introduced into second life ever since then, and every new body kinda had the inspiration from INITHIUM kupra. Mainly people complained about the waist being so “hourglass” that it basically looked like you had a built-in corset, and there was nothing you could do to kind of “pop out” the waist to make it look more normal. Hence, there was really not a lot of competition.

However, I found a way to make it look more normal than leaving it the way it was.

When it comes to the INITHIUM kupra body, do not use the torso slider because that's when you get the whole “built in a corset” kind of look, so that's what I did was thrilled with it, to be honest.

but then eBody Reborn came to second life, and at first, I didn't like it at all, but I kept a demo of the body in my inventory for about… well, ever since it came out, which was…. October 2021.

I kept going back to it, trying to “play around with it” to see if I could make a shape that I actually liked with the body. The more I played, the more I leaned towards buying the body.

So a few days ago, I decided to take a leap of faith and by the body. It took me about one hour to figure out how the body worked and make a shape I absolutely love.

One hour is a record-breaking time for me because every time I have bought a new body, it has taken me about 10 hours to make a shape that I actually love. No, I'm not kidding you, by the way.

I have used the body for a few days now, and I have nothing bad to say about it, although there is one tiny detail that I would like to change, and that's how the nipples look. They are too small in my opinion. I think you will see what I mean once I show you a photo.

When it came to the INITHIUM kupra body, many creators in second life were really slow when it came around to making clothing for it at first. Then the body exploded onto the second life market.

 when eBody Reborn first launched, it seemed everybody in second life was making clothing for it from the start,

Which I thought was kind of odd until I started thinking, way back in the day in second life, there was this body called slink, but as time moved on and second life evolved, the slink body kind of died out, but I am suspecting that the clothing that was meant for the slink body fits the eBody Reborn body.

But I also feel that the slink body brand has come back but with a different name. Now, don't quote me on that. These are just my theories on why everybody picked up making clothing for the ebody Reborn so fast.

The waist on the eBody reborn is so beautiful and natural-looking. I just love it!

What really is a game-changer for me is that you can use this body for pregnancy. When you use the belly slider, the belly actually looks pregnant instead of getting this weird alienated shape, so you can still wear clothing like normal. Still, you look pregnant. Way back in the day, when everybody was using a second life system body, you could use the belly slider to be pregnant; when the mesh bodies came to second life, that feature was kind of lost because, as I said, if you moved the belly slider up too much the belly, you would look so weird that being pregnant what's not enjoyable anymore at least not for me. But I am super happy to see that eBody reborn has made it so that the belly does not look weird when using the belly slider. I can't even tell you how much I appreciate that.

I have always seen myself as a plus-size second drive because I am plus size in real life, so it doesn't make sense for me to be thin in second life, and let me tell you, this body plus-sized is amazing! Out of this world is amazing!!

I haven't felt this good about myself in second life since my Bellzza Fraya days and believe me, that was a very long time ago!

Looking at my nude picture now, I don't think the nipple part is my problem. I think it's the areolas that are too small for my liking. I prefer them to be big and realistic. So I'm hoping that someone will create a nipple to my liking with all of the creations for this body.

Most mesh bodies are ridiculously high priced, upwards of 5000-6000. Even the eBody reborn Comes in at the amazing price of 3500 lindens; I repeat 3500 lindens!

Lindens is the currency used within second life.

When I saw this price, I couldn't believe my eyes because everything in second life had become so expensive, especially when the pandemic started.

I could repurchase 5000 lindens in the day, lasting for about two to three weeks. Nowadays I can buy 5000 lindens, and they will only last me for about 5 days!

No, I don't believe that it's because I want the high-end stuff. After all, most of the stuff in my inventory is from the weekend sales in second life. I rarely buy anything at full price.

But I have seen a trend with the weekend sales because there are more and more out there, and the more they are, the more expensive the sales actually become.

I hope I don't have to do a body switch anytime soon. Now bakers getting all of these bodies, and clothing for the bodies also gets expensive, so I am hoping and praying that this will be the last time I ever have to do a body switch again in second life, but again you never know.

Going from the kupra body to the eBody Reborn was hard for me to do at first because every time I get a new body, it's hard to see myself in another body, if you know what I mean. Still, now that I've decided to go from the previous body to this body and see how amazing it is, I don't regret it one bit. This body is the ultimate body. Trust me when I say.

Why?

Price point.

Easy to use.

A realistic-looking body.

Natural curves.

Easy to use hud.  

The body naturally reacts to the shape sliders.

 I am seriously considering deleting my whole Kupra body folder with over 6000 Items in it because I don't see myself going back to that body, but then again, if kupra were to die out, I wouldn't be able to get the clothing then I have accumulated for that body again so I'm still kind of on the fence about it, to be honest, but I most likely will delete the folder after a while

What I really wish second life could be built-in to the viewers is being able to” retire folders” or hide them that way, you could save space without having to.

So it is with a semi-happy heart I leave the kupra body behind. I really enjoyed that body so much, but that body had something missing, and I just couldn't figure out why until I bought the eBody reborn.

This will be the Last Post with the Kupra body at the forefront, as you probably already understand. From now on, my blog will exclusively be with eBody Reborn.

♥Tessa♥

 

♥And just like that....A new adventure begins.♥

If you read my last blog post when I first posted it, you will be thinking that you are seeing double right now, but you are not wrong. I included this in my last blog post, but I felt like I wanted to dedicate this experience two its own blog post.

I'm still living at the best hotel there is in second life, but at the moment, I'm kind of going back and forth, and you will understand why soon.

It was a typical morning at the hotel about, I would say, two weeks ago, maybe I don't really know. But I had this feeling that something was going on with my body, but I couldn't add my finger to it. So I'm going about my daily routine putting in whatever, when I stopped in my tracks when it hits me "Oh my God! what if I am pregnant?"

as soon as that struck me, a million emotions started going through my head and through my body:

happiness

fear

joy

excitement

sadness

happiness

fear

joy

excitement

Anxiousness.

I feel butterflies in my stomach. My brain feels like it's about to explode.

I sit down at my computer, searching the Internet for the best pregnancy test. Not that they are hard to figure out, but I only go for the best of the best.



It feels like I barely had time to blink before a knock at my door. It's the delivery guy.

"Hi, miss blackwood, here is your order." He smiles as I gently grab the bag.

I'm thinking to myself, "if you only knew what you or bring me."

Instead, I say out loud, "Thank you."

the guy smiles and says, "have a good day, miss!"

I gently nod and close the door quietly.

My hands were shaking as I grabbed the pregnancy test box from the paper bag.

I look at the box, breathing deeply as I open it taking out the instructions.

"option one: Collect a urine sample within a dry container, put the pregnancy test in for 10 seconds,

wait three minutes."

"Option 2: pee on pregnancy test midstream wait three minutes."

My head is still growing a million miles a second. I decided to go with option one. I do as the instructions say. and I quietly say to myself, "This will be the longest 3 minutes of my life."

When I finally managed to calm down enough, I sent a photo to one of my partners. He is extremely, extremely close to me, and he is the one I call my husband even though we are not officially married in second life because I don't want to be a tied down to anyone, and I don't want him to feel like he is tied down to me.

He called me back not even five seconds after I sent the photo. I can hear him holding back the tears as he says," is it true, baby?" are you pregnant, really?"

I burst into tears when he asked me, and I finally answered,

"yes, it's true, baby. I'm pregnant."

"I'm pregnant, baby."

as soon as I say yes, he is unable to hold back the tears

"Oh my Jesus Christ, Oh my God, baby! Oh my God!"

"I was in a meeting, but I just had to call you. I almost lost it when I saw the photo."

(My partner was at home when I sent him the photo, but he had people around him in his real life, so he couldn't really express his happiness the way he wanted to, but this is how I believe he would have reacted if he was alone in real life. because I know him that well.)

My partner speaks through his sniffles.

"I love you, baby! I love you so much! I love you! Do you hear me? I love you!. I have to go now. I have to get back to the meeting, and I'm guessing I have to answer many questions about why I am teary-eyed and puffy."

I say through my own sniffles.

"I love you too, baby, I love you! Yes, I hear you. I love you too."

We laugh about his comment about going back into the meeting.

My partner says once again, "I love you, baby. I'll see you both when I get home."

I smile a little, saying, "I love you too, and I miss you."

We hang up the phone, and I find myself staring at the test, thinking about the next nine months.

I put my hand on my stomach, looking down at my belly softly, saying," here we go, little one."

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I have been pregnant before in second life. Believe it or not, I was pregnant back to back during the first three years of my second life. Because I enjoyed it so much. I can't put into words how much I actually enjoyed my pregnancies.

Second life has evolved so much over the years when it comes not only when it comes to pregnancies and the realism behind them but so much more.

The number one reason I haven't been pregnant for so many years in second life, even though I genuinely enjoy it from the bottom of my heart, is that it's so expensive!

To me, the cost of everything is mind-blowing! But I missed it so much over the years. I think I am finally at a place where I can really enjoy it this time and now think about the cost or problems or whatever it may be when it comes to having a baby inside

the big close second reason I haven't gotten pregnant sooner in second life is the fact that I did my very first three pregnancies alone. And I am a person that lives my second life very, very realistically, so I did 9 months of real-lifetime pregnancy every single time.

yes, people thought I was crazy, but it was realistic

and to be honest, with me being premature, I can tell giving people the weird eye look when they say, "oh, I'm only going to be pregnant for 9 weeks" of course, I don't tell them this, but when I hear stuff like that I'm thinking to myself "well you could just skip being pregnant then."

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So let's skip forward a little bit. I am seven weeks pregnant today, and I took a pregnancy test to be sure haha.

Seven weeks pregnant is also special to me because that should mean that I should hear the baby's heartbeat for the first time, so I bought a home Doppler from a maternity clinic here in second life. I have had it before, but I lost my copy of the Doppler, and I can't get in touch with the boss of the clinic to give me a new copy, so I just repurchased it.

I'm going in between the hotel and my second life premium Linden lab home because I can't really live in the hotel with the baby. After all, they are so limited on prims. I also don't want to contribute to the lag of the hotel. I personally haven't really experienced any problematic lagging issues. Still, if you walk in there with a highly scripted baby, it will lag the place down for those experiencing lag.

I will try to share a little clip with me listening to the heartbeat when I have figured out how to remain lying down when I wear the Doppler because right now, it is standing me up when I put it on, and that's not very realistic I would much prefer if I would remain lying down.

If you are still reading this, thank you for making it this far, and thank you for being a faithful supporter. I would love to hear from you all, so please leave a comment, and I will as soon as I can!

♥Tessa♥