* Sponsored by Beautiful Dirty Rich*- “I made you look”

 Hello everyone!

So after a significant break from this blog and my other blogs, too.

I'm going to try to get back into the swing of things, and I hope I will get the urge to start writing again more regularly, especially on my erotic blog.

 

Let's get into this blog post!

So today, I reached out to the owner and soul creator behind the brand Beautiful Dirty Rich. I have been sponsored by her before, so I will link that blog post below if you're interested in looking at that.

This creator is particular in my heart because she was the first store I ever bought clothing from when I came to second life about 12 1/2 years ago. You can trust me when I say she has only gotten better and better and better. Second, life has evolved tremendously over my 12 1/2 years, and seeing her still being here and still going strong makes me so happy.

Beautiful dirty rich has one of the best crochet texture patterns I have ever seen in my entire life; anytime that she includes the crochet texture in something, I immediately go and buy it, so when I saw her most recent release for an event in second life the *B.D.R* Katarina Dress I screamed my head off. It's the most gorgeous crochet dress I have ever seen and so sexy!

I am not ashamed to say that Within 5 minutes of seeing this dress, I reached out to her asking if she would be willing to sponsor me for this post.

 The Katarina Dress Has so many different texture and opacity options, so I decided to make a video clip of me swatching a few of the colors and showing off the hud that comes with the dress.

If you are new to beautiful dirty rich clothing, the clothing always comes with a hud with a bunch of cool and unique pattern styles that you can switch up, mix and match sometimes, and her prices are reasonable. That's one of the reasons why I keep going back to her because you get so much bang for your buck.

I don't know about you guys, but I feel that the economy inside your life has flown through the roof in the past took three years, and it's getting harder and harder to shop for the things you want, and it's getting harder and harder to make the lindens last, even though I am a huge weekend sales shopper!

Here comes the fun part some pictures of me wearing the dress. That's what you all came for, right? *Grins*

Keep in mind I have a few projector lights around me in the photos showing off the dress in what I consider to be the best lighting for myself and my skin and everything like that.

Yes, I have the most spoiled-looking face ever; I know that, but I just couldn't resist!

The Katarina Dress comes in the sizes:

Compatible with Maitreya + Petite + Breast Lift (By Ecru), Legacy + Perky + PushUp (By Nerido), Kupra + Kups, Reborn + Juicy Boobs, Belleza Gen.X Classic & Curvy.

 I am, of course, wearing the one and only body for me, Ebody Reborn, and in this case, I am also wearing the juicy boobs add-on.

The Katarina Dress Can be found at Sense Event from the 18th of December 2022- January 8th. Opening at 6 pm SLT. After the event, you can find it in the main store, and on Mp I think.

Thank you so much, Beautiful Dirty Rich. for sponsoring me and this blog post!

Please keep up the wonderful work that you are doing and have been doing for so many years.

You have a special place in my heart, and I can't wait to see what you come up with next!

/Tessa Pitbull Blackwood

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♥Life Update♥

 Wow, hello, everyone!

I don't know where to start because so much has been happening. It's a roller coaster of emotions everywhere, happy ones! though don't worry.

 

So we got home from Fiji on the 14th of August 2022. It was such a fantastic experience and a fantastic vacation. I can't wait to do it again.

If you want to know more about the Fiji vacation, please visit my traveling blog.

But just because we got home does not mean we haven't had spontaneous vacations, even road trips to Norway(yes, in second life)

we have been doing so much stuff that I have a backlog of blogging!

I am so crazy happy about it,

*Trying to gather my thoughts*

Well, I should tell you I now live in a mansion and add a place called the Grove. It's a very, very luxurious community with gorgeous rentals.

If I remember correctly, you rent the plot itself. It does not come with the house, as far as I know.

My husband Gabe took me there to show me around and have a little one-on-one time.

When I saw the whole place, I was floored by the meticulous attention to detail in the landscaping. It is literally like walking around in a storybook.

You must come to this place if you love photography.

Now that I'm sitting here thinking about it, it reminds me of the beauty and the beast.

Gabe and I walked around for a bit, but then we decided to take out our horses just to let them "stretch."

I was so floored that I kept saying wow, wow, wow, Gabe must have thought I had lost my vocabulary at some point.

I teared up a little bit while looking around.

After riding around for a bit, Gabe stops me and asks, "would you like to live here?"

My jaw dropped, and I just said, "have you seen the prices of the rentals, baby?"

He just said, "yes, I have now answer my question. Would you like to live here?"

I looked into his eyes and said, "Yes, I would."

Not long after this, My husband David came home from work. I immediately got into his IM box and started telling him about the Grove.

He smiled and said, "yes, baby Gabe told me you guys are there."

David continued, "I am sneaking up on a property as we speak."

I knew then there was no point in convincing them not to rent.

Let me make one thing: it is not cheap to live here, so if you don't have the wallet for it, don't try it.

After getting help with rentals and the land groups, it was off to house hunt.

All three of us or very, very particular, so Needless to say, it was an enjoyable experience.

It didn't take as long as I thought it would take to choose a house we all liked.

 

Placing down the house and most of the decorations were done by my husband David because he has an extensive inventory, even more, extensive than mine when it comes to furniture and décor.

It didn't take long to settle in, feeling like this was home to all of us.

The Grove staff even offer to decorate help mainly for the outside, but I am very, very happy with how it looks, although some of the pieces I wish I could send back to the staff, we are not allowed to, which I can also understand.

Now to what seemed to be on everybody's mind at the moment:

Why have I "changed so much?"

Let me try to put this into words for you (Which is harder than you think)

The short answer is it's easy to be yourself in every possible way when you get the freedom to.

For those who don't like my lifestyle:

I don't care.

My life is not your life to dictate. I am right where I'm supposed to be. More importantly, I am right where I WANT to be. I am fulfilled in every possible way that you can think of.

I might come across as a Bitch, But I would rather be a bitch with queen status than never speak my mind again.

/Tessa

 

♥It's a love story, baby just say yes.♥

 

In about 24 hours, I will be sitting on a plane in second life with my partners on our way to Fiji!

It feels so strange to say, but I have never in my 12 years of second life traveled somewhere; yes, I have been staying at a hotel which was going to be short-term for me but ended up being very long term, so I don't see that as a vacation.

Using the word excited would be an understatement at this point. I am so pumped up for this trip that it's probably ridiculous, but I don't even care.

 

I have gone through so much this year, both mentally and physically, so this trip means a lot to me even though it's in second life.

To be able to go on this trip with the two people I love with all my heart is just the icing on top of the cake.

 

Before I met David and Gabriel, I didn't do much apart from photography and blogging; I was a hermit, to be honest with you.

I think the colossal reason is that I have been hurt so many times in the past 12 years that I just gave up on trying to do something in second life because most of the time, people would be telling me that I was crazy for doing second life the way that I do it.

And when I did fall in love with somebody, it ended up being only one-sided, coming from me and not from them.

So I've been so used to sticking my head down and working, not talking much to other people, not even trying to fall in love with somebody because, as I said, it has only been one-sided, so what's the point, right?

Here comes David and Gabriel, and what started as a beautiful friendship Has now blossomed into a solid relationship.

I was scared in the beginning because I realized that I was feeling more than just friendship for both, and these are feelings that I have never really felt before when it comes to second life.

The fact that both love me as much as I love them is new to me.

Nothing is strained between us. There's no drama between us. Everything flows naturally like we have been together for about ten years. I don't think that words can describe our relationship. It's just very romantic, loving, and caring.

I'm still terrified of losing them both, And I know they are frightened of losing me. It doesn't matter how often I keep telling them I'm not going anywhere.

So I'm hoping this trip can solidify everything. 

If you would like to follow along with everything we're going to be doing on this trip, please head over to my traveling blog, the scrapbooking travels of second life. I do have an adult content warning on that blog for now because I am not sure how I will write on the blog yet. I mean, I'm going to write the blog in the same manner as I always do. Still, I don't know what type of pictures I'm going to use or if I'm going to have a little bit of adult content on it or not, so that's why.

I will be back in full swing on the 15th!

/Tessa

Do you really know what it feels like? *braindump*

 

That feeling of being unwanted?

When somebody suddenly stops reciprocating back to you?

When do you feel like you are suddenly being "friend zoned" after it being so lovely?

I hate feeling all of the above, and that's precisely what I have been feeling for the past couple of weeks.

 

It all started with the father of my baby Not being "himself" towards me or this pregnancy. I had felt like he was pulling away more and more from me, but I didn't think much of it because we all have a real life outside of second life, at least I hope everyone does.

But I had this feeling in the back of my head that something was not right, and when I get those feelings, I usually end up being right in the end, and unfortunately, my feelings did not prove me wrong this time either.

There was an incident a few days before this that I also put to the back of my mind, but as the day went on, I got increasingly annoyed about what happened.

He came to the Bistro and made a "smart-Ass-comment" about the pregnancy, and i just finally had enough at that point, and I told them a piece of my mind I would not let him speak until I was done. By the end of the conversation, he just told me, "I will talk to you later."

He messaged me a few days later, and the short story is that he will no longer be present in my second life or this pregnancy. Not that it matters because he has never even been to one doctor's appointment With me. He only ever showed genuine interest in wanting to be with me the first time.

So I have been going alone every time, every month. Luckily I've had friends and partners that have the loud me to share my experience with the pregnancy with them.

 

If it hadn't been for them, I would have stopped this pregnancy a long time ago because I promised myself that in my subsequent pregnancy, I wouldn't be doing it by myself.

Yet here I am, 22 weeks pregnant, and I'm not talking second-lifetime wise; I'm talking real-life time nine months of pregnancy.

I don't know what to do or what to feel at this point because it feels like everyone that I meet ends up clicking with the end up pulling away from me in the end. I don't want it to be like that. I want to feel:

Loved

Appreciated

Wanted

Desired

I don't want people to think that I am needy because I'm not I have a strong desire to show people that I genuinely love them in any way I can. When it comes to second life, I am very affectionate, and when I feel something for someone, I'll never stop showing them what I feel for them.

If only people could stop seeing second life as a world where you role play, I think more people would feel the way I feel about it. I mean, for fuck's sake, even the founder of second life calls second life for what it is a virtual reality! Let me repeat that—virtual reality.

This is not World Of Warcraft, people! So, stop treating it like it is! I promise you the moment you stop treating second life as "any other game," a whole new world will open for you.

 

Yes, I fall in love with people in second life, and my feelings are genuine, but that doesn't mean I'm delusional and think about meeting the person in real life because that will most likely never happen 100%. Still, I do I mean every single word I say to a person that I love.

You can ask anyone that knows me. I am honestly incapable of lying to somebody; I have always been that way sometimes; not being able to tell a lie can sometimes be tricky, and most often, I get in trouble.

so you can understand how you feel when somebody suddenly flips a coin or something and friend-zones me, making me feel

unwanted

unloved

undesired

and so much more.

 

For me, WORDS are essential In second life.

words or phrases like "holding your hand."

"kissing you gently."

"I love you."

Are very, very important to me because when a person says or writes this to me, I feel a deep connection to that person; besides, I would hope that The words "I love you would trigger anybody to feel something."

I use the words I love you, A LOT because I believe it's essential to show each other affection even though you must be across the world from each other.

me and my real-life husband, for example, say I love you to each other more than 200 times a day because you can't really "overuse" those words (believe me, I have met people that think that you can say I love you "too much."

What the hell kind of crap talk is that?!

I am tired of feeling like this and being disappointed time and time again, so I have decided not to be the first person to say, "Hi baby, I missed you," hi baby," I love you" I am just going to put my head down and make people not take me for granted.

 

To most people reading this, I might come across as a "needy Bitch” I have one thing to say to you: you don't know me at all if you think that way about me. And to be honest, I don't care if you do. That shows me I don't need you in my second life or real life.

If I say I love you to you or anyone else reading this, Deb means I do love you regardless of our world because I am incapable of shutting off my feelings like I would shut off my computer. That's just the way I am, so you can either take it with open arms, or you can leave.

Thank you for listening/Tessa

Oh, and by the way, I am having a little girl….

Urban Roots Café!

Yes, I have had to pinch myself quite a few times these past few weeks. I am now a café owner. As a matter of fact, I am the designer; however, I will not take credit for the outside landscaping.

The outside landscaping is done by Urban Roots home and Garden warehouse, Who I work for but don't get it twisted. Me working for them has nothing to do with my café.

by UrbanRoots home and Garden warehouse  (TP)

Specializes in high-quality furniture at affordable prices, so yes, almost all the furniture items I use in the café come from them. Why wouldn't I, after all, they have done for me?

Read more about the café over at The Café blog.

Check under each tab; there is a lot of information!

I still can't believe I am the owner of this beautiful place, and I have complete freedom to do as I please.

 Completely indirective and run extremely realistically; you can even order food, but with that comes payment; you don't eat for free in real life, so why would you eat for free in a cafe in second life? Sure, there are hundreds of cafes in second life where you don't have to pay for the food, but most of the time, there's not even staff there. So I am proud to say that never in my 12 years how about come across a café like mine. The Café blog.

I hope to see you soon, and please help me spread the word!

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♥Black . Sand = revolutionizing Zooby Compatible baby furniture.♥

 Hello everyone, it's me, Tessa.

I hope you all are doing good? 

I am doing better and better each day, and I feel like I am fast-tracking to new opportunities because ever since I left my job in second life, doors have been opening for me left and right, so I am really, really excited about that.

I feel like the whole universe knows this by now, But just in case this is your first time here, I am currently five months pregnant in second life. I have been pregnant in second life before, but this is the first time I genuinely enjoy it.

As most people know, pregnancy also comes with nesting in looking for baby furniture, strollers, accessories, and baby clothing. Believe it or not, we have that in second life.

So today, I want to talk about a store revolutionizing baby furniture regarding second life.

Black . Sand

This is not a sponsored post because I bought everything with my own lindens, and the creator did not ask me to do this.

Pregnancy within second life has always been something I've been drawn to, and I probably always will be drawn to it, to be honest. The pregnancy side of second life and all that comes with it has stood still for many years. It has not been evolving at the same rate as other parts of second life. At least, this is what I feel.

But I am thrilled to tell you that pregnancy and second-life babies have started blooming! And I think it's two to the fact that the biggest creator of second life, Animesh babies, has finally released building kits so people can build their own baby furniture!

So many craters are coming out with so much unique stuff that it blows my mind.

But the one creator that is revolutionizing Zooby Baby furniture is Black . Sand.

As many of you know, I am trying to figure out how to Live in a second-life premium membership home. With all the baby furniture, I will need to take care of my baby's needs in second life. The Zooby baby furniture can be pretty high in prims, especially when you add the high-quality stars instead of just the old stuff.

the baby in itself it's going to be around 50-60 prims, then the baby crib comes that might be as high as 18 prims

the baby bathtub is usually not that high in prims but let's say around 6 prims total,

then we have the changing table that could be as high as 12 prims

That brings the total prim count to 96! And that does not include the baby's clothing.

When I saw Black . Sands latest creation, I literally wrote to him, "can I just tell you I love you" now I understand that that might seem weird if you didn't know my connection with the creator from way before he was a creator. His latest creation Makes compact living WITH a baby possible!

Are you picking your jaw up off the floor yet!?

This is the Black . Sand Nursery Mia's Ultimate Crib

WITH Black . Sand Nursery Mia's Ultimate Diaper Changer

*screams with joy*

Yes!!! It is a Changing table add-on and crib!

The total prim cunt is 16!!! 

That's if you have the Black . Sand Nursery Mobile, Without the Mobile, it's just 13!

I Got the crib and the diaper changer at The Saturday sale 2022-06-18. 75 Lindens Each!!!

Fatpack HUDS with both HURRY There is still time!!

 Black . Sand.

Trust me when I say you won't go back to anything else once you have seen what  Black . Sand. Can do and offer.

♥Tessa♥

♥Closing one chapter to let another one open♥

 Hello everyone, so sorry for my absence these past three weeks, but a lot has happened things that made me realize what I'm truly supposed to do.

The big reason for my absence was that I got the job in second life, not just any job. It was my dream job.

I had to quit because Something severe happened in my real life that I won't discuss right now, and I don't think I ever will.

But as soon as I said, "This will be my last shift. "I felt a huge relief. It was like I could breathe again. Of course, I felt sadness, but the overwhelming relief made me realize it was the right decision for me.

I put my heart and soul into Something but didn't feel welcomed. I felt as if I was just "in the way." That feeling pretty much hit me straight away, but I stayed because I thought it was Something that was going to get better as time went on, but it got worse. I even tried talking about it, but I could literary feel I was not getting through with what I was saying.

In the end, I felt bullied, and even though Something truly Terrifying happened in my real life, it made me make the decision that would happen sooner or later.

I would like to thank my friends who supported me during my time in the workplace, Especially my friend Dove. she was there when I truly needed someone to "hear my voice."

If you want to know more, feel free to contact me, but I will not go into more detail here.

I am a writer; that is the one thing that has remained constant in my life since I was 7 years old.

Later in life, when I found second life, I found Photography, so that is what I will keep on doing. Writing and taking photos.

If, and that is a big IF, I take on another job in second life, it will be where I feel welcomed and appreciated. 

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On the 6th of June 2022, I had my 15-week check-up at  The Family Center Maternity Clinic.

Everything is fine, and the little one is growing by the second it feels. While I was talking to My Dr, she explained that she has been forced to make some changes to have the clinic running; reasons I COMPLETLY  Understand and stand behind.

I urge you to please Make a donation to the clinic if you have Lindens to spare. She truly has one of the best clinics in second life.

During the three weeks unable to write. Because I felt like I didn't have time. I was so happy that more and more creators in second life are coming out with gorgeous baby furniture for Zooby babies.

My favorite stores so far are:

KAZZA

Black.Sand

I am so excited to see what more they will come out with.

It is good to be back in full swing doing what I love. Thank you so much for your unwavering support!

♥Tessa♥

♥12 years♥

 Hi everybody hope you all are doing well? As of yesterday, the 20th of May 2022, I officially have been in second life for 12 years! 12 years is astonishing to me, to be honest. I know that some people are going to say," oh, I've been here 16-17 years," 12 years is a huge deal because I never thought that I would be in second life for this long and still love it the way I do second life is such a big part of me and a big part of my everyday life that I can't really see myself without it.

The anticipation for my 12th-year Celebration started in April. I was talking with my two best friends in second life. I don't know how we got into the topic of my" Birthday" in second life, But everything landed on the fact that I felt that I really wanted a celebration for a change. all of my other years in second life, I never really set my mind on celebrating because, in the one or two years that I have tried to have a  celebration, no one ever bothered to show up, so I just stopped. but my two best friends encouraged me to have a birthday celebration because a birthday is a birthday after all.:)

So I made a simple yet eye-catching birthday invitation, and I sent it out to my friends. I sent it out in April because I wanted people to have the time to look at their real-life schedules to see if they could make it or not because of the different time zones people might be in. After all, it's literally worldwide based when it comes to second life. Hence, you meet people from all over the world, but you don't always have the same time zones.

Because I am a person who chooses not to friend every person I meet in second life, I don't have a huge friends list, so I decided to post my birthday invitation on Flickr just in case anybody wants to come that was not on my friend's list.

After I did my invitation, I felt really motivated to go out and look for food for my party. I'm not talking about food just for decoration; I'm talking about food you can actually click and interact with when it comes to eating and drinking.

I had so much fun because a lot of the stuff I managed to get was really cheap and affordable. After all, when it comes to second-life weekend sales, many items are food.

But there is one store in particular that really stands out for food: Cinoe.

The quality in detail is phenomenal. Some things can be a bit pricey, but it's worth every Linden dollar.

The day Before my birthday, I literally spent 6-7 hours decorating and getting all the food in place. In fact, I do have a little video clip!

It took me so long to set everything up mainly due to my Cerebral palsy (CP) and since I am a perfectionist and everything has to look right. I'll keep doing it until it does if it doesn't look right.

My real-life husband has worked in the restaurant business for practically half his life, and he has worked on many birthday parties and weddings, so I asked him for help with how I should put up everything.

You guys have to forgive my poor video skills, but you got to see what it looked like.♥

after the party, I took it all down, and I decided to repaint the walls and change the flooring.

To my surprise, a lot of people came by! It was so much fun! We played games and "ate" food and talked.

I really felt celebrated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone that came by and to everyone that could not come but wished me a happy birthday. It really means a lot to me.

I thought about making this blog post yesterday, but I literally had no time because I just had so much fun, and in the end, when everybody had left, I decided to make the blog post today when I had time to process it all.

Oh! The day before my birthday, I got gifted a little playground for the baby!

I will love to use that when she or he finally arrives.

The playground also has animations for the parents to sit and cuddle with their partner while you keep a close eye on the baby, which I absolutely love.

( Playground Link)

My Next Doctors appointment is on The 6th of June 2022. I will be 15 weeks by then; hopefully, my partner can come with me this time. He was so bummed out he couldn't go with me the last time, so I'm hoping that he can make it this time.

Hopefully, I will have started to feel some movement by then. I absolutely cannot wait to feel the baby move.

I think that's about it for this blog post!

stay kind

♥Tessa♥

♥Braindump+12 week pregnancy update♥

 Hello everyone!

Sorry for my absence, but this time it wasn't intentional. I had plenty of blog posts planned for the other week. Still, one day my Internet decided to stop working, and we couldn't figure out why. After some digging, we found out that another Internet provider did the dumbest thing you can possibly do: cut the Internet cable that provides Internet to the whole neighborhood.

When the Internet went down, everybody in my family was scrambling for a solution because both of my nephews, who are 15 and 10 years old, are big-time gamers, so they were screaming 5 minutes after the Internet went down. I thought I would struggle with having no Internet More than I actually did.

My real-life husband also struggled a lot because we both watch a lot of TV series on almost all of the streaming services you could possibly think of. The fact that he couldn't watch episodes from his favorite TV series Wilson was bothering him the most because he couldn't play games on his phone, what's the most frustrating thing.

My husband plays about 10 to 15 games on his phone simultaneously. No, I'm not kidding.

He has actually made quite a name for himself in the gaming circuit.

Before he and I met, he was about three months away from signing a contract with one of the biggest e-sport teams back then, but life took him elsewhere.

Do I consider myself a gamer?

Well, I don't really know to be honest. I do enjoy many shooting games, but there are not many I can do due to my disability.

I am 10-12 hours a day in second life, but I don't see Second Life as a game, so I don't know.

Have I ever tried The Sims?

Yes, and I will NEVER EVER get the point of that game whatsoever. It's like having a Tamagotchi.

Tamagotchi came out in 1996. It's basically like having a pet. You have to feed it, bathe it, clean up after it, and so on. this is how I see The Sims, and I don't see the point.

Unless something huge happens with The Sims, I will never ever play it.

It feels like my brain has been going the 1000 mph; lately, there is so much I want to do, so much I want to accomplish, And there's so much I want to achieve when it comes to my blog and second life, of course.

At the moment, I'm just trying to slow myself down, and I'm trying to make myself let things take time and understand that it does not have to be done in 15 minutes.

I have always believed that they don't work for me when the time is right, So I just have to let things take time, Even though it's frustrating.

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12 weeks pregnant today♥

If there is one thing that seems to be flying by, it's my pregnancy!

The one thing I DON'T want to fly by.

one thing is for sure I am soaking up every second of it

In my last blog post, I talked about the feeling of wanting to be covered up. As far as clothing goes, I still feel that way, but not as much as I did before.

In the mornings in second life, I can find myself laying in bed, stroking my belly and just thinking about what it will be like when he or she is finally here.

Last week, I finally got the baby's last bits and pieces, including a stroller!

I was going around second life looking at high chairs, strollers, and baby carriers.

I had so much fun doing it. 

My second life husband could not come with me because he had rl work, but I sent him photos of the stroller to see which one he liked the best. 

We don't know the gender yet, so I was trying to pick unisex colors.

                                                                                  His Favorite

                                                                            My Favorite

After seeing it in a store, I also bought a highchair. The store is called Sweet Penelope. They specialize in clothing and accessories for Zooby Babies.

I only finished decorating the house yesterday. I feel like I have been nesting so much the past month up until now. The land and the house is a house you can choose from if you are a premium member of second life. When it comes to the premium SecondLife homes, you only get 351 prims with them. That is ridiculously no for the furniture that is in second life nowadays. I'm really hoping they will change that at some point.

I will try to explain as best I can for those who aren't familiar with the term prims connected with furniture in second life.

 

say you are renting a place in second life. Let's say that please cost around 1000 lindens a week to rent, so every week you go to your rental box and you pay for another week or another two weeks or whatever.

With that rental, you have, let's say, about 1000 prims. Once you have reached 1000 prints on your rental, you can't put down more furniture. you can take away furniture to put down other furniture, but you can't go over 1000 prims. For example, you have a bed that is 20 prims that will take away 20 prims from your original 1000 prims.

I hope that makes sense.

I don't know how I did it, but I managed to decorate my entire house with my stuff and the baby stuff plus the outside, and I still have over 100 prims left.

I'm going to brag a little bit here because to do a completed decorated house, including furniture for a baby, on a 351 Prims total, it's pretty damn good.

When the baby comes, she or he will take up about 50 prims. I never thought I could pull off living with all this furniture that I would need for the baby, including my stuff and most notably including the baby, in a second life premium home.

What will be tricky is that what Andrew clothing you put on the baby will add two of your baby's prims!

Say you want to put a shirt on me. That shirt is 8 prims, which will make your baby 58 prims in total.

I don't know why the creators decided to do this because it wasn't like this before, and I just think that clothing that will add prims to your baby it's totally ridiculous to me.

so I will have to be really careful in choosing what clothing I put on the baby to be able to stay in the premium home.

the clothing thing it's absolutely crazy. I don't understand why you would put prims on baby clothing!?

I'm really hoping it will change.

With my mind being so"hyper" now, I decided to pop over to Essencia Hotel just for a few hours today. I have a standing room there; after all, why not use it?

As always, as soon as I opened the door to my room, the calmness I felt when I first stepped into the hotel washed over me.

The 12-week baby-bump photo comes to you from the Essencia Hotel beach! Don't worry, I didn't take the jet ski out to the dock; I swam. I can finally see a little baby-bump start forming; I'm so excited!

I can't wait to share more photos!

Thank you to everyone who keeps up with me and supports me. It really means the world to me.

♥Tessa♥

♥Home after first doctors appointment♥

 

Oh, man! I hardly know where to start. My head is still spinning from experience. In a good way!

So my doctor's appointment was actually a few hours ago. Still, I am not kidding you when I say the experience with so vivid and so realistic that my head was spinning all over the place, so I could literally not sit down and make a blog post right away.

I was going about my business in second life when I got a message from my doctor asking if I could come in edit earlier due to her real-life job as a midwife.

And of course, I said yes as soon as I saw it because I have been waiting for this day for what feels like forever!

So my appointment was at 10 AM slt Instead of 12:00 PM slt. I scrambled to put on an outfit trying to look cute but comfy. I got there about 15 minutes early, so many end my doctor talked a little bit just in general before we started my appointment.

She explained that I would have to leave the urine sample at the start of every appointment, so she led me to the toilet, where the vivid realism started.

I literally had to go inside a bathroom, get a urine sample cup, go through the steps, and then detach the sample cup and give it to her.

We made our way into the exam room. I had to step on a scale to give her my weight. Then she told me to sit down on the exam table while examining the urine sample.

So I had to wait like 10-15 minutes. I thought that she would come over and explain how everything was fine and everything like that boy. Was I wrong! The urine test results started coming up in local chat. My mind was blown. I presume it had all the correct numbers, everything that you would look for as a doctor. Everything!

So we sat down, talked a little bit, and she explained that everything looked fantastic, but she was a little bit concerned about my weight. That always becomes a thing with me being plus-sized, But she did it in a very positive matter. She explained to me further that I may need a bit more exercise not to lose weight but to get my body ready for being able to push a baby out.

After talking briefly about that, she handed me a little monitoring patch that I had to stick on my belly after stripping down to my underwear, basically, so that is what you see on my stomach in the photo. She explained the monitoring patch is so that she can take my vitals, such as blood pressure temperature, and check the baby's health.

So I put it on, and she pushed a button. The heartbeat. I can't remember if it was on my monitor or on the ultrasound machine, but I wasn't prepared for what I heard. Next, it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever heard before.

Yes, I have a home doppler, so I have heard it before, 

but to actually be there in the exam room with all the equipment took the experience to a different level,

 and to be honest with you, I was in tears in my real life 

I could hardly type when she talked to me; I kept saying, “sorry, I'm so emotional.” She had me lay down on the exam table, and she put a little bit of ultrasound gel on my stomach. My head was glued to the monitor. She turns it on and guides the ultrasonic wand Over it. It didn't take me long to recognize the little one inside me.  He was taking the measurements and checking out the baby overall. Everything looked fine. We don't have to worry about spina bifida, a form of parallelization.

 The baby is born with a part of the spinal cord outside of the body on the back. If I remember correctly, the spinal cord is contained within a sack, but it's still outside of the body, which it shouldn't be.

Unfortunately, when I made this little video clip, it did not pick up any sound, so I'm sorry for that, but if you want to see the ultrasound, please click the video play button.

We talked a little bit. I mainly stayed quiet with a big smile, not wanting to disturb her too much when looking at the baby. I was trying to hide the fact that cheers for streaming down my face slowly, but I think she noticed it actually.

So after printing a few pictures for me to take home, she said everything looks OK, let us switch over to high definition now, end all my God, Oh my God, it's all I can say. This tiny thing inside me was moving a little bit and even stretching. It was so amazing to see.

My second life partner was a bit bummed that he couldn't be there with me due to real life, but yet again, he was there with me because we were talking a little bit via text as I was making the doctor's appointment. When I got home after I sent him the pictures and videos. He told me to remind him a day before the next appointment so that he could MAKE TIME for it.

Do you understand why I love this man the way I do?

Not many men would take time out of their day to go to a doctor's appointment in a virtual world because their second life partner it's pregnant!

And trust me, he is swamped in his real life, so saying that means everything to me.

My due date is around December 3rd, 2022

we don't know the gender yet. We will find that out when we go to my 20-week appointment in July.

I want to thank doctor Morrigan for the absolutely fantastic job and the passion she shows.

With both hands on my heart, I can say that the family center should be the only maternity clinic in second life. Trust me when I say that.

♥Tessa♥

ps. All of this is happening in a virtual world environment, but you have to understand something. Even though I know this is not real, it is as real as possible for me.

My feelings and my emotions or real there is nothing fake about them.

You might think it's a little bit weird to be in the world on your world platform and live in that virtual world as realistic as possible, But think about it for a second…. in real life, I don't have use in my legs I can choose to have use of my legs in second life. 

Second life is a place where people come to experience stuff that they might not be able to do in real life for whatever reason…

 So I don't have use in my legs in real life, and being pregnant might not be something I will ever be able to experience in real life.

 This is why this pregnancy being so realistic is very important to me. 

So please respect that.

♥Tessa♥

♥10weeks and 1 day♥

You guys can't believe I am 10 weeks pregnant already. Well, 10 weeks and 1-day technically, it feels like only yesterday we found out I was pregnant. I say we because I need to remember that I'm not alone in this, which feels fantastic.

I have noticed some rather funny changes within myself these past few weeks. For example, before I got pregnant, I was all about showing skin and sexiness, but I'm pregnant. I keep finding myself wanting to be more modest. I don't really know why but I just feel like I need to be more “covered up.”

I was contemplating putting on a two-piece bikini to go and lay down on the beach right outside Essencia Hotel for a little bit. Still, I found myself reaching for this bodysuit/Bathing suit because I yet again wanted to feel more covered.

I had the same feeling when going to the first yoga class at “my” maternity clinic, The Family Center.

This was so good that I felt so relaxed that I almost fell asleep in real life afterward, so I'm glad I signed up for all the yoga classes.

This might seem a little weird, but the moment a woman realizes that she is pregnant and is about to embark on a journey to motherhood, I feel like you immediately “tone down” her personality. You go into “motherhood mode.”

Can anybody relate to that?

Hearing the ocean and birds as I write this is calming and relaxing. Soaking up the sun also helps me to focus my thoughts. Don't worry. I have sunscreen protection on, and I am in the shade drinking water.

Sitting outside always makes me feel one with nature. I know that may sound really corny to some of you, but it's how I feel.

Another thing that I have noticed about being these past couple of weeks instead I feel so centered within myself and so present. Although some things can go a bit better in real-life situations, I woke up to a massive water leak in my house about two weeks ago now, but that's hopefully getting fixed soon.

As I've said in previous posts, I have done SecondLife pregnancies before. Still, I've always done them alone, which has made me feel lonely because I didn't have anybody to share the experience with. Still, I actually have somebody to share the experience with when it comes to this pregnancy. I'm not alone, which makes this experience unforgettable for me. He has a lot to do in no, but he still supports me in wanting something as simple as my yoga schedule and the doctors' appointment schedule. It's the little stuff he does that shows me that he cares. That's all I want, and that's all I need apart from him loving me, of course.

I've never been that type of girl who needs a man constantly by her side. I think that's a massive part of why he and I work so well together.

He comes on to second life, and before he does anything else, he asks me, “how are you 2 doing? it's everything OK?”

Small things like this mean the world to me.

We talk for a little bit, then he does his second life work. He is a photographer, so he's swamped at times.

Even when he's working in second life, I still feel connected to him because I can literally write him a message, and I know that he will respond as soon as he can, which makes me feel like he is still “with me” even though he is not by my side at that moment.

Tomorrow is a special day. Tomorrow I have my first doctor's appointment, which means I finally get to do an official ultrasound! I can't even tell you how excited I am. I can't put it into words. It is so exciting.

I say, official. I had an unofficial very early ultrasound done at six weeks because I just couldn't wait for the whole 10 weeks to be able to see him or her. although at six weeks, all you could see was a sack with fluid and a tiny “blob.”

Speaking of pregnancy, I can't remember how long it's been since I switched from kupra to ebody reborn. Still, I have had it long enough to say that this is the number one body for pregnancy, the number one with no exaggeration. This body has it all, and the shapes come out beautiful. so as far as the pregnancy body from legacy they can learn from the ebody reborn And then go back to the drawing board

in fact, every single female mesh body should learn from ebody reborn.

You can be sure that I will update you tomorrow after my doctor's visit!

♥Tessa♥

♥9 weeks today♥The family center.♥

Wow! I can't believe I'm 9 weeks pregnant already! to be honest with you, the pregnancies I have had in the past, the first few weeks were absolute pain because he seemed to get by so slow. I started to have morning sickness when I was around 7 1/2 weeks, and boy, I did not miss that part. Still, I genuinely believe that the first few weeks have been an absolute breeze to get by because I am so happy and content.

The big thing for me when it comes to pregnancy this time around is that I'm not alone. I am sharing this with somebody finally, and it makes me so happy I can't even describe it in words. Yes, I know it sounds cheesy, but hey, I love cheese, so why not.  

Another massive factor in why I'm so happy with this pregnancy is switching to ebody Reborn. I cannot tell you how badly you must try the ebody reborn. If you are tired, I'm trying to make the belly look right during pregnancy in second life.

The sliders work perfectly, and the belly does not look like a weird alien. Of course, you have to adjust your shape a little bit, but it's amazingly perfect for pregnancy!

The first few weeks of my pregnancy, I spent researching for the best maternity clinic in second life. During my first two pregnancies in second life, I went two a maternity clinic but let me tell you, it's not worth the lindens. Hence, in all of my other pregnancies after that, I basically had a home birth by myself because I realized that what they were doing and what they were getting paid for I could literally do by myself.

I even went back to a maternity clinic where I used to work just to see if anything had changed over the years. The only thing that had changed was the ridiculous pricing and some staff. First of all, if I wanted to have my baby at their clinic, I would have to buy a package, but then on top of the package I would have to buy a hud that is around 5000 lindens Because that hud connects equipment automatically, I didn't have the hud I couldn't Have them as my clinic. I already knew that I would not go with them as my clinic because it's totally ridiculous.

 

In second life, you have this conception hud. There are several, but this is the easiest one to use. It's called Mama-Allpa, so I went into that group chat and asked if there was a doctor that could do a very early ultrasound on me. And the doctor responded that if I go to the Mama-Allpa main store, there is a bulletin board of sorts with all the certified doctors to work with Mama-Allpa.

So I went there, and I found the most fantastic clinic with the most incredible doctor, and because I am using the Mama-Allpa, I don't have to pay for her services. It's totally free; my jaw dropped when I heard that from her.

The clinic I signed up with is the family center.

and my dr is Dr. Morrigan Horten ( I believe she is the boss.)

if you have the Mama-Allpa And do you want to get in contact with her, the easiest way is to go to the Mama-Allpa main store and find her on the Bulletin board

The family center is certified for the following 

Mama-Allpa

Hands-on Momma

❤Momma (Love Momma)

Eden RolePlay system.

Pediatrics for Funsies.

My first appointment is on the 2nd of May 2022, but I have already gone over there to peek around to get the feel of the place, and I absolutely love it. I also signed up for yoga, which I am so excited about!

While I was sneak peeking around, I actually bumped into my doctor!

She ended up showing me around the place. I got to go into the different birthing suites and the exam rooms. It is so realistic I had to basically just stand there and take it all in because I have never seen anything like it in my 12 years of being in second life. 

Here are a few words from Dr. Morrigan Horten herself!

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I'm a semi-retired homebirth midwife IRL, and I train Doulas."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I've been doing obstetrics in SL for 15 years."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I've been certified with Mama Alllpa for over 10 and am a certified educator and examiner for the system."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I love folks having as close to a realistic experience as SL can afford while making sure it's very positive."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: many folks have babies in SL to recover from a bad rl experience. I help many find a positive closure."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: we don't do high risk here as I don't believe in recreating birth trauma."

" Dr. Morrigan Horten: I help guide folks through what is called a "Happy Path.""

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The vibe of the sim where the clinic is in the mountains of Southeast New Mexico.

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This little framed Board represents all of Dr. Morrigan Horten's babies that she helped enter this world THIS YEAR. Yes, just 2022!

I just feel so happy in this pregnancy. Everything is falling into place. There is nothing that I'm worried about or annoyed about. I'm just thrilled this time, and the fact that I happened to stumble on this beautiful clinic takes the pregnancy to a whole different level for me.

Please go to the family center if you want to have your baby in a calming, realistic environment.

You won't regret it.

My appointment is not for another week, but to be honest with you, I couldn't help myself, so I bought a home Doppler just to hear the baby's heartbeat when I was seven weeks. I know that that's a bit early, but I couldn't wait, so if you click play on the little video clip, you will hear my baby's heartbeat.

Link to home Doppler 

some info about when you can first hear a baby's heartbeat if you want to use the doppler realistically 

You can start hearing the baby's heartbeat as early as 6 1/2 to 7 weeks.

Another reason why I'm so excited to do this pregnancy is because of accessories like this look at this cute mummy bag. Have you seen anything cuter and anything more perfect than this? I mean, this is queen status!

this screams,” Yes, I am a mom, and/or I'm pregnant, and I'm The queen!"

Mommy bag from Movement 

75 Lindens offer! The 23rd of April 2022.

All I can say is that I am so over the moon.

Of course, I will blog after my first doctor's appointment, and I will also show you the baby if I get an ultrasound picture♥

♥Tessa♥

🌺Nesting🌺

 Hi, everyone hope you all are doing well?

I am doing great, thank you for asking.

There's absolutely gorgeous weather in Sweden today. The sun is shining brightly, and there's a blue sky. I don't know about you, but a day like today makes me feel energized. I love it, so I have spent a little time away from The keyboard today.

But I have gotten a lot of stuff done in second life today. Also, I found this fabulous sale going on; it's called Spring Sidewalk Sale.  I stumbled on it by accident. 

There are so many stores participating. It's incredible. It's like the vendors keep on coming.

One vendor, in particular, had me really spending money, but because this is a sale event, the money spent wasn't a lot.

The store is called old world and help the most beautiful food and garden things I've seen in a long time in second life so I bought some bits and pieces and I even bought my own vegetable garden which I have wanted for so long, but I haven't been able to find one that looks good enough for me to use it.

She has different fruit baskets, such as pies and bread and small platters with fruit on them, but the only downside is that it's just decorations or items you can hold. If you click them, it won't give you anything, which is sad because everything is beautiful.

I enjoyed buying her stuff so much that it sent me into “nesting mode” I am currently 8 weeks and one day today, And tell you how excited I am to experience this pregnancy in second life. It just feels so right this time. I don't know how else to explain it, but it just feels right. I think a lot of it has to do with the reborn body. Like I have said in my previous post, This body has made me feel like myself 100%. Over the years, I have thought that I felt like myself in other bodies that I have used, but the reborn body has really connected me with what I look like in second life. It does not just fit me to about 80%. It fits me 100%. I am so comfortable when it comes to looking at myself in second life and knowing that the way I look in second life is 100% reflecting me in my real life.

I hope you understand what I mean.

I go for my first ultrasound on the 2nd of May 2022 at 10 weeks. Generally, you don't go for an ultrasound before that because there's not that much to see before 10 weeks, but I had sneakily done an ultrasound when I was six weeks pregnant.

I need your thoughts and opinion on this. Would you, as my readers, like to see the ultrasound pictures, or do you think that that would be too much for you? I live my second life very realistically, so I have and will have ultrasound pictures.

I took a cab home from the spring sale, and as soon as I got home, I had this overwhelming urge to bake stuff And make food in general. So instead of my kitchen in second life just looking pretty, I decided to use it because I have one of those interactive kitchens that are interactive, and you can actually cook some food in the kitchen.

I was telling you about the breadbasket and the pie I bought from the old world store at the beginning of this post, so I just “heated” the pie for a little bit in my oven. I will do the same with the bread when I need some.

The cookies on the sheet pan I actually baked in my oven! 

I'm so proud of myself!

You know what? After I'm done writing this post, I am going over to the old world store to see what else I can get my hands on because I'm nesting! Yes, that's my excuse!! Haha.

*sighs Happily* 

I feel so calm and content. You know that everything falling into place kind of feeling? That is what I'm feeling right now in both worlds.

Please leave a comment if you want to but also, please leave a comment regarding the ultrasound pictures so that I know where you stand on that.

♥Tessa♥