saying Hi.

 So, what have I been doing since my Last Post?

I still live in a hallway full of moving boxes, but I am slowly getting through them and making my new home in Second Life feel like my home. It still feels weird to me to be living alone and to be able to do whatever I want in second life again. Before I go any further, I have been getting messages from people concerned about what is happening to me in my real life. I want to calm everybody down and say my real life is lovely. I am thrilled and will continue to be satisfied in my real life for as long as I live. I'm blogging about this situation concerning my second life and my second life breakup. Some people may have a problem understanding my type of blogging, so I encourage you to read the disclaimer part of this blog before you continue to have a better understanding.

OK, now let's move on.

Those of you who have been following me for a while and following this blog for quite some time know that I had a pretty nasty infected break About one year before getting into this relationship, which has now ended. Still, with a hand on my heart and soul, these two relationships have been the most damaging relationships I have ever had combined in real life and second life.

After getting out of this second-life relationship, I feel so unsteady, uncertain, and self-conscious I don't know why; that's a lie. I know why: I let this guy get too close to me. I did whatever he wanted to make him happy, which is so out of character. I don't know why I'd let him get so close to me. It was like every day was revolving around him.

He asked me to stop blogging, and I did.

He asked me to stop taking photos, and I did.

He asked me to stop working in Second Life, and I did.

There was so much I let him take away from me to make him happy.

I endured quite a lot from this man. Of course, it was never physical, but the mental side of it? Yeah, the mental side of it was so damaging.

He has asked me to forgive him for the pain that he caused me, but his actions spoke louder than his words, and they still do.

I have been trying to get back to some form of normalcy in my second life right now. I plan to return to the person I was before and make new friends.

I have been enjoying the Black Friday sales. I picked up a new Lelutka head, One that I have been watching ever since it came out, I think five years ago now, but I never wanted to buy it at full price, so I finally took the plunge and bought it when it was 50% off I think the lelutka sale is still going on so I might pop over and by one more head before the sale ends.

I have also been picking up a few bits and pieces for the baby I wanted, and that store also had 50% off.

I'm pretty much ready for her to be here regarding the baby's needs. I feel very content with what I have for her.

As far as taking a bit of "me" time, I have been enjoying being alone, decorating my house, and watching movies within Second Life; watching movies is very relaxing, and it helps me to put my thoughts in order or spark an idea for a subject that I want to write about. 

All in all, guys, it feels amazing to slowly but surely be an independent woman again. I am going to embrace the time it will take for me to get there. It might go fast or slow.

/Tessa