Dear Diary....I took a Train Ride.

 * Open the drawer and pull out my very dusty diary*

As I flip through the pages to land on the fresh one, I realize that for the first time in a very, very long time, I have the freedom Of my second life back, the freedom of me back, But yet I feel some sorrow I say" some kind" because I don't know what these feelings are.

The words exchanged are still ringing in my head, although those words made me realize what I have been dealing with for the past 2-3 years.

I gave it my all in the end; that was not enough.

Only a very few people in my second life and real life know the true extent, and I intend on keeping it that way.

Somehow, I feel nervous, excited, sad, and sorrowful all at the same time, and it's tough to control all of these feelings, so as always, I turned to my trusty blog, and I write because this is my safe space; this is my place.

I moved into a one-bedroom apartment provided by La Bella Dream Estates. The landlord is good!

It's tiny but perfect for me, at least now.

I have been exploring rather than staying at home doing nothing. Even though it's way out of my comfort zone to do something alone, I'm proud of myself for doing it.

I am a part of a group called Greg's Bar and Lounge, and he always announces when he has a boat, plane, or train ride.

Yesterday, I took the boat right, which I had been looking forward to for a long time, but finally caught the Announcements in time.

It was fun and something I highly recommend other people do if you like to explore and travel.

Today, I finally managed to catch the train ride! Oh man, I was so excited!

Yes, that's me at the very back of the train. The train ride was long, but I like traveling long distances in real-time, even though it's in second life. It took about an hour, maybe an hour and a half. I don't know; I lost track of time.

As the train was moving up and down through the little towns in bridges, I realized its similarity with my second life being so up and down for the past 2-3 years. The train had a lot of people, but I needed to pay attention to what was said in the local chat. I just went into my mind, trying to make sense of everything.

If someone had told me what I know today and what has led up to this point four years ago, I would have told that person that they were absolutely crazy. Looking back on everything, I don't know what to say because my mind is blown away.

I had a hot cup of coffee about midway through the train ride, but of course, it messed up my sitting animation, so I had to stand up, which led me to fall off the train(Yes, you can laugh)

The train driver, Mr. Greg Timmerman, was swift in giving me a teleport back onto the train; I always seem to fall into the water, off the train, or anything else when I decide to explore.

I didn't even know Second Life had train stations; some are beautiful!

I highly recommend that you join Greg’s group and go on one of the traveling cruises that he has to offer. There are some lovely places in Second Life, so please don't miss out.

It will be quite some time before I feel like I am back to myself; I am back to myself but not genuinely confident or steady on my feet yet.

Thank you to all of my readers for sticking by me and for being there for me by continuing to read my blog.

♥Tessa♥