17 weeks+3 days pregnant

 Wow, I'm 17 plus three weeks pregnant. It feels like this pregnancy is flying by. It's hard for me to believe that in three weeks, I will be hitting the halfway mark….HAF WAY!

 This pregnancy is and has been bringing me so much joy. I feel connected in a way that I haven't felt before. This time, it feels so much fun and so loving. For those who have not been pregnant in a second life, let me explain a little bit about it as much as I can, at least. Many couples in second life choose to have a shorter pregnancy than in real life. You can also conceive and track your pregnancy through a variation of hud.

So, for example, the woman can choose to do her entire nine-month pregnancy in WEEKS in second life time. (Don't quote me on that; I am trying to explain as simply as possible.)

I am doing a nine-month second-life pregnancy with a 24-hour conversion, which means that my days in second life are as long as my days in real life.

When I tell people this, people often think that I'm crazy but brave because, as I said, most couples never do the 24-hour conversion.

When it comes to pregnancy, I can't see myself doing it any shorter because it wouldn't be realistic to me, and there's also the significant factor that I was born very prematurely.

Because I see second life as a form of real life, why would I want my baby to be born prematurely? That's not going to happen.

I must say this pregnancy has been the most enjoyable out of the pregnancies I have had before, and I think it's since I have found a pregnancy belly that makes me look beautiful and not the "horrible stretched-out belly way." I am using [BORK] Mommy Mode for eBody Reborn1.0.2. Getting the shape for the belly right is tricky, but once you nail that, it's stunning!!!

I am also using maternity clothing by Hoodlem. Hoodlem provides maternity mesh clothing that will fit the belly. Hoodlem is the best creator and provider of all things maternity, especially regarding the belly and apparel. The clothing is relatively expensive, but you get so many color choices with the clothing; some clothing is even interactive.

 There are not many mesh body creators that have nailed down a realistic pregnancy body yet, which baffles me because, believe it or not, pregnancy and the family way of second life have become more and more popular over the years, so I am hoping that a mesh body will turn up soon that has that "perfect" pregnancy body and belly look.

The picture you see above, which I took about 30 minutes ago, is my five-month baby bump picture. I should have stood more to the side so you could see the belly more, but as most of you know, I take photos now, so I didn't think about standing more sideways.

Yes, there is a black-and-white filter over the top of the photo; I have made it personally. Other than that, the picture has no retouching or editing.

Saying that I feel so sexy would be an understatement. I feel so beautiful and sensual I don't even know what to do with the feelings sometimes; I know that this must seem crazy to you, but it's genuinely how I feel. I have never been pregnant in real life, and I will never be, but the feelings I get from being pregnant in second life must be the closest I can come to experiencing the feelings a pregnant woman would have.

If you have any questions or want to say anything, please don't be afraid to leave a comment on this blog post. I read every single word I get and respond. Are you also pregnant in second life? Please reach out to me♥/Tessa.

Dear Diary....I took a Train Ride.

 * Open the drawer and pull out my very dusty diary*

As I flip through the pages to land on the fresh one, I realize that for the first time in a very, very long time, I have the freedom Of my second life back, the freedom of me back, But yet I feel some sorrow I say" some kind" because I don't know what these feelings are.

The words exchanged are still ringing in my head, although those words made me realize what I have been dealing with for the past 2-3 years.

I gave it my all in the end; that was not enough.

Only a very few people in my second life and real life know the true extent, and I intend on keeping it that way.

Somehow, I feel nervous, excited, sad, and sorrowful all at the same time, and it's tough to control all of these feelings, so as always, I turned to my trusty blog, and I write because this is my safe space; this is my place.

I moved into a one-bedroom apartment provided by La Bella Dream Estates. The landlord is good!

It's tiny but perfect for me, at least now.

I have been exploring rather than staying at home doing nothing. Even though it's way out of my comfort zone to do something alone, I'm proud of myself for doing it.

I am a part of a group called Greg's Bar and Lounge, and he always announces when he has a boat, plane, or train ride.

Yesterday, I took the boat right, which I had been looking forward to for a long time, but finally caught the Announcements in time.

It was fun and something I highly recommend other people do if you like to explore and travel.

Today, I finally managed to catch the train ride! Oh man, I was so excited!

Yes, that's me at the very back of the train. The train ride was long, but I like traveling long distances in real-time, even though it's in second life. It took about an hour, maybe an hour and a half. I don't know; I lost track of time.

As the train was moving up and down through the little towns in bridges, I realized its similarity with my second life being so up and down for the past 2-3 years. The train had a lot of people, but I needed to pay attention to what was said in the local chat. I just went into my mind, trying to make sense of everything.

If someone had told me what I know today and what has led up to this point four years ago, I would have told that person that they were absolutely crazy. Looking back on everything, I don't know what to say because my mind is blown away.

I had a hot cup of coffee about midway through the train ride, but of course, it messed up my sitting animation, so I had to stand up, which led me to fall off the train(Yes, you can laugh)

The train driver, Mr. Greg Timmerman, was swift in giving me a teleport back onto the train; I always seem to fall into the water, off the train, or anything else when I decide to explore.

I didn't even know Second Life had train stations; some are beautiful!

I highly recommend that you join Greg’s group and go on one of the traveling cruises that he has to offer. There are some lovely places in Second Life, so please don't miss out.

It will be quite some time before I feel like I am back to myself; I am back to myself but not genuinely confident or steady on my feet yet.

Thank you to all of my readers for sticking by me and for being there for me by continuing to read my blog.

♥Tessa♥