♥12 years♥

 Hi everybody hope you all are doing well? As of yesterday, the 20th of May 2022, I officially have been in second life for 12 years! 12 years is astonishing to me, to be honest. I know that some people are going to say," oh, I've been here 16-17 years," 12 years is a huge deal because I never thought that I would be in second life for this long and still love it the way I do second life is such a big part of me and a big part of my everyday life that I can't really see myself without it.

The anticipation for my 12th-year Celebration started in April. I was talking with my two best friends in second life. I don't know how we got into the topic of my" Birthday" in second life, But everything landed on the fact that I felt that I really wanted a celebration for a change. all of my other years in second life, I never really set my mind on celebrating because, in the one or two years that I have tried to have a  celebration, no one ever bothered to show up, so I just stopped. but my two best friends encouraged me to have a birthday celebration because a birthday is a birthday after all.:)

So I made a simple yet eye-catching birthday invitation, and I sent it out to my friends. I sent it out in April because I wanted people to have the time to look at their real-life schedules to see if they could make it or not because of the different time zones people might be in. After all, it's literally worldwide based when it comes to second life. Hence, you meet people from all over the world, but you don't always have the same time zones.

Because I am a person who chooses not to friend every person I meet in second life, I don't have a huge friends list, so I decided to post my birthday invitation on Flickr just in case anybody wants to come that was not on my friend's list.

After I did my invitation, I felt really motivated to go out and look for food for my party. I'm not talking about food just for decoration; I'm talking about food you can actually click and interact with when it comes to eating and drinking.

I had so much fun because a lot of the stuff I managed to get was really cheap and affordable. After all, when it comes to second-life weekend sales, many items are food.

But there is one store in particular that really stands out for food: Cinoe.

The quality in detail is phenomenal. Some things can be a bit pricey, but it's worth every Linden dollar.

The day Before my birthday, I literally spent 6-7 hours decorating and getting all the food in place. In fact, I do have a little video clip!

It took me so long to set everything up mainly due to my Cerebral palsy (CP) and since I am a perfectionist and everything has to look right. I'll keep doing it until it does if it doesn't look right.

My real-life husband has worked in the restaurant business for practically half his life, and he has worked on many birthday parties and weddings, so I asked him for help with how I should put up everything.

You guys have to forgive my poor video skills, but you got to see what it looked like.♥

after the party, I took it all down, and I decided to repaint the walls and change the flooring.

To my surprise, a lot of people came by! It was so much fun! We played games and "ate" food and talked.

I really felt celebrated. Thank you from the bottom of my heart to everyone that came by and to everyone that could not come but wished me a happy birthday. It really means a lot to me.

I thought about making this blog post yesterday, but I literally had no time because I just had so much fun, and in the end, when everybody had left, I decided to make the blog post today when I had time to process it all.

Oh! The day before my birthday, I got gifted a little playground for the baby!

I will love to use that when she or he finally arrives.

The playground also has animations for the parents to sit and cuddle with their partner while you keep a close eye on the baby, which I absolutely love.

( Playground Link)

My Next Doctors appointment is on The 6th of June 2022. I will be 15 weeks by then; hopefully, my partner can come with me this time. He was so bummed out he couldn't go with me the last time, so I'm hoping that he can make it this time.

Hopefully, I will have started to feel some movement by then. I absolutely cannot wait to feel the baby move.

I think that's about it for this blog post!

stay kind

♥Tessa♥

♥Braindump+12 week pregnancy update♥

 Hello everyone!

Sorry for my absence, but this time it wasn't intentional. I had plenty of blog posts planned for the other week. Still, one day my Internet decided to stop working, and we couldn't figure out why. After some digging, we found out that another Internet provider did the dumbest thing you can possibly do: cut the Internet cable that provides Internet to the whole neighborhood.

When the Internet went down, everybody in my family was scrambling for a solution because both of my nephews, who are 15 and 10 years old, are big-time gamers, so they were screaming 5 minutes after the Internet went down. I thought I would struggle with having no Internet More than I actually did.

My real-life husband also struggled a lot because we both watch a lot of TV series on almost all of the streaming services you could possibly think of. The fact that he couldn't watch episodes from his favorite TV series Wilson was bothering him the most because he couldn't play games on his phone, what's the most frustrating thing.

My husband plays about 10 to 15 games on his phone simultaneously. No, I'm not kidding.

He has actually made quite a name for himself in the gaming circuit.

Before he and I met, he was about three months away from signing a contract with one of the biggest e-sport teams back then, but life took him elsewhere.

Do I consider myself a gamer?

Well, I don't really know to be honest. I do enjoy many shooting games, but there are not many I can do due to my disability.

I am 10-12 hours a day in second life, but I don't see Second Life as a game, so I don't know.

Have I ever tried The Sims?

Yes, and I will NEVER EVER get the point of that game whatsoever. It's like having a Tamagotchi.

Tamagotchi came out in 1996. It's basically like having a pet. You have to feed it, bathe it, clean up after it, and so on. this is how I see The Sims, and I don't see the point.

Unless something huge happens with The Sims, I will never ever play it.

It feels like my brain has been going the 1000 mph; lately, there is so much I want to do, so much I want to accomplish, And there's so much I want to achieve when it comes to my blog and second life, of course.

At the moment, I'm just trying to slow myself down, and I'm trying to make myself let things take time and understand that it does not have to be done in 15 minutes.

I have always believed that they don't work for me when the time is right, So I just have to let things take time, Even though it's frustrating.

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12 weeks pregnant today♥

If there is one thing that seems to be flying by, it's my pregnancy!

The one thing I DON'T want to fly by.

one thing is for sure I am soaking up every second of it

In my last blog post, I talked about the feeling of wanting to be covered up. As far as clothing goes, I still feel that way, but not as much as I did before.

In the mornings in second life, I can find myself laying in bed, stroking my belly and just thinking about what it will be like when he or she is finally here.

Last week, I finally got the baby's last bits and pieces, including a stroller!

I was going around second life looking at high chairs, strollers, and baby carriers.

I had so much fun doing it. 

My second life husband could not come with me because he had rl work, but I sent him photos of the stroller to see which one he liked the best. 

We don't know the gender yet, so I was trying to pick unisex colors.

                                                                                  His Favorite

                                                                            My Favorite

After seeing it in a store, I also bought a highchair. The store is called Sweet Penelope. They specialize in clothing and accessories for Zooby Babies.

I only finished decorating the house yesterday. I feel like I have been nesting so much the past month up until now. The land and the house is a house you can choose from if you are a premium member of second life. When it comes to the premium SecondLife homes, you only get 351 prims with them. That is ridiculously no for the furniture that is in second life nowadays. I'm really hoping they will change that at some point.

I will try to explain as best I can for those who aren't familiar with the term prims connected with furniture in second life.

 

say you are renting a place in second life. Let's say that please cost around 1000 lindens a week to rent, so every week you go to your rental box and you pay for another week or another two weeks or whatever.

With that rental, you have, let's say, about 1000 prims. Once you have reached 1000 prints on your rental, you can't put down more furniture. you can take away furniture to put down other furniture, but you can't go over 1000 prims. For example, you have a bed that is 20 prims that will take away 20 prims from your original 1000 prims.

I hope that makes sense.

I don't know how I did it, but I managed to decorate my entire house with my stuff and the baby stuff plus the outside, and I still have over 100 prims left.

I'm going to brag a little bit here because to do a completed decorated house, including furniture for a baby, on a 351 Prims total, it's pretty damn good.

When the baby comes, she or he will take up about 50 prims. I never thought I could pull off living with all this furniture that I would need for the baby, including my stuff and most notably including the baby, in a second life premium home.

What will be tricky is that what Andrew clothing you put on the baby will add two of your baby's prims!

Say you want to put a shirt on me. That shirt is 8 prims, which will make your baby 58 prims in total.

I don't know why the creators decided to do this because it wasn't like this before, and I just think that clothing that will add prims to your baby it's totally ridiculous to me.

so I will have to be really careful in choosing what clothing I put on the baby to be able to stay in the premium home.

the clothing thing it's absolutely crazy. I don't understand why you would put prims on baby clothing!?

I'm really hoping it will change.

With my mind being so"hyper" now, I decided to pop over to Essencia Hotel just for a few hours today. I have a standing room there; after all, why not use it?

As always, as soon as I opened the door to my room, the calmness I felt when I first stepped into the hotel washed over me.

The 12-week baby-bump photo comes to you from the Essencia Hotel beach! Don't worry, I didn't take the jet ski out to the dock; I swam. I can finally see a little baby-bump start forming; I'm so excited!

I can't wait to share more photos!

Thank you to everyone who keeps up with me and supports me. It really means the world to me.

♥Tessa♥

♥Home after first doctors appointment♥

 

Oh, man! I hardly know where to start. My head is still spinning from experience. In a good way!

So my doctor's appointment was actually a few hours ago. Still, I am not kidding you when I say the experience with so vivid and so realistic that my head was spinning all over the place, so I could literally not sit down and make a blog post right away.

I was going about my business in second life when I got a message from my doctor asking if I could come in edit earlier due to her real-life job as a midwife.

And of course, I said yes as soon as I saw it because I have been waiting for this day for what feels like forever!

So my appointment was at 10 AM slt Instead of 12:00 PM slt. I scrambled to put on an outfit trying to look cute but comfy. I got there about 15 minutes early, so many end my doctor talked a little bit just in general before we started my appointment.

She explained that I would have to leave the urine sample at the start of every appointment, so she led me to the toilet, where the vivid realism started.

I literally had to go inside a bathroom, get a urine sample cup, go through the steps, and then detach the sample cup and give it to her.

We made our way into the exam room. I had to step on a scale to give her my weight. Then she told me to sit down on the exam table while examining the urine sample.

So I had to wait like 10-15 minutes. I thought that she would come over and explain how everything was fine and everything like that boy. Was I wrong! The urine test results started coming up in local chat. My mind was blown. I presume it had all the correct numbers, everything that you would look for as a doctor. Everything!

So we sat down, talked a little bit, and she explained that everything looked fantastic, but she was a little bit concerned about my weight. That always becomes a thing with me being plus-sized, But she did it in a very positive matter. She explained to me further that I may need a bit more exercise not to lose weight but to get my body ready for being able to push a baby out.

After talking briefly about that, she handed me a little monitoring patch that I had to stick on my belly after stripping down to my underwear, basically, so that is what you see on my stomach in the photo. She explained the monitoring patch is so that she can take my vitals, such as blood pressure temperature, and check the baby's health.

So I put it on, and she pushed a button. The heartbeat. I can't remember if it was on my monitor or on the ultrasound machine, but I wasn't prepared for what I heard. Next, it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever heard before.

Yes, I have a home doppler, so I have heard it before, 

but to actually be there in the exam room with all the equipment took the experience to a different level,

 and to be honest with you, I was in tears in my real life 

I could hardly type when she talked to me; I kept saying, “sorry, I'm so emotional.” She had me lay down on the exam table, and she put a little bit of ultrasound gel on my stomach. My head was glued to the monitor. She turns it on and guides the ultrasonic wand Over it. It didn't take me long to recognize the little one inside me.  He was taking the measurements and checking out the baby overall. Everything looked fine. We don't have to worry about spina bifida, a form of parallelization.

 The baby is born with a part of the spinal cord outside of the body on the back. If I remember correctly, the spinal cord is contained within a sack, but it's still outside of the body, which it shouldn't be.

Unfortunately, when I made this little video clip, it did not pick up any sound, so I'm sorry for that, but if you want to see the ultrasound, please click the video play button.

We talked a little bit. I mainly stayed quiet with a big smile, not wanting to disturb her too much when looking at the baby. I was trying to hide the fact that cheers for streaming down my face slowly, but I think she noticed it actually.

So after printing a few pictures for me to take home, she said everything looks OK, let us switch over to high definition now, end all my God, Oh my God, it's all I can say. This tiny thing inside me was moving a little bit and even stretching. It was so amazing to see.

My second life partner was a bit bummed that he couldn't be there with me due to real life, but yet again, he was there with me because we were talking a little bit via text as I was making the doctor's appointment. When I got home after I sent him the pictures and videos. He told me to remind him a day before the next appointment so that he could MAKE TIME for it.

Do you understand why I love this man the way I do?

Not many men would take time out of their day to go to a doctor's appointment in a virtual world because their second life partner it's pregnant!

And trust me, he is swamped in his real life, so saying that means everything to me.

My due date is around December 3rd, 2022

we don't know the gender yet. We will find that out when we go to my 20-week appointment in July.

I want to thank doctor Morrigan for the absolutely fantastic job and the passion she shows.

With both hands on my heart, I can say that the family center should be the only maternity clinic in second life. Trust me when I say that.

♥Tessa♥

ps. All of this is happening in a virtual world environment, but you have to understand something. Even though I know this is not real, it is as real as possible for me.

My feelings and my emotions or real there is nothing fake about them.

You might think it's a little bit weird to be in the world on your world platform and live in that virtual world as realistic as possible, But think about it for a second…. in real life, I don't have use in my legs I can choose to have use of my legs in second life. 

Second life is a place where people come to experience stuff that they might not be able to do in real life for whatever reason…

 So I don't have use in my legs in real life, and being pregnant might not be something I will ever be able to experience in real life.

 This is why this pregnancy being so realistic is very important to me. 

So please respect that.

♥Tessa♥

♥10weeks and 1 day♥

You guys can't believe I am 10 weeks pregnant already. Well, 10 weeks and 1-day technically, it feels like only yesterday we found out I was pregnant. I say we because I need to remember that I'm not alone in this, which feels fantastic.

I have noticed some rather funny changes within myself these past few weeks. For example, before I got pregnant, I was all about showing skin and sexiness, but I'm pregnant. I keep finding myself wanting to be more modest. I don't really know why but I just feel like I need to be more “covered up.”

I was contemplating putting on a two-piece bikini to go and lay down on the beach right outside Essencia Hotel for a little bit. Still, I found myself reaching for this bodysuit/Bathing suit because I yet again wanted to feel more covered.

I had the same feeling when going to the first yoga class at “my” maternity clinic, The Family Center.

This was so good that I felt so relaxed that I almost fell asleep in real life afterward, so I'm glad I signed up for all the yoga classes.

This might seem a little weird, but the moment a woman realizes that she is pregnant and is about to embark on a journey to motherhood, I feel like you immediately “tone down” her personality. You go into “motherhood mode.”

Can anybody relate to that?

Hearing the ocean and birds as I write this is calming and relaxing. Soaking up the sun also helps me to focus my thoughts. Don't worry. I have sunscreen protection on, and I am in the shade drinking water.

Sitting outside always makes me feel one with nature. I know that may sound really corny to some of you, but it's how I feel.

Another thing that I have noticed about being these past couple of weeks instead I feel so centered within myself and so present. Although some things can go a bit better in real-life situations, I woke up to a massive water leak in my house about two weeks ago now, but that's hopefully getting fixed soon.

As I've said in previous posts, I have done SecondLife pregnancies before. Still, I've always done them alone, which has made me feel lonely because I didn't have anybody to share the experience with. Still, I actually have somebody to share the experience with when it comes to this pregnancy. I'm not alone, which makes this experience unforgettable for me. He has a lot to do in no, but he still supports me in wanting something as simple as my yoga schedule and the doctors' appointment schedule. It's the little stuff he does that shows me that he cares. That's all I want, and that's all I need apart from him loving me, of course.

I've never been that type of girl who needs a man constantly by her side. I think that's a massive part of why he and I work so well together.

He comes on to second life, and before he does anything else, he asks me, “how are you 2 doing? it's everything OK?”

Small things like this mean the world to me.

We talk for a little bit, then he does his second life work. He is a photographer, so he's swamped at times.

Even when he's working in second life, I still feel connected to him because I can literally write him a message, and I know that he will respond as soon as he can, which makes me feel like he is still “with me” even though he is not by my side at that moment.

Tomorrow is a special day. Tomorrow I have my first doctor's appointment, which means I finally get to do an official ultrasound! I can't even tell you how excited I am. I can't put it into words. It is so exciting.

I say, official. I had an unofficial very early ultrasound done at six weeks because I just couldn't wait for the whole 10 weeks to be able to see him or her. although at six weeks, all you could see was a sack with fluid and a tiny “blob.”

Speaking of pregnancy, I can't remember how long it's been since I switched from kupra to ebody reborn. Still, I have had it long enough to say that this is the number one body for pregnancy, the number one with no exaggeration. This body has it all, and the shapes come out beautiful. so as far as the pregnancy body from legacy they can learn from the ebody reborn And then go back to the drawing board

in fact, every single female mesh body should learn from ebody reborn.

You can be sure that I will update you tomorrow after my doctor's visit!

♥Tessa♥