Stupid Boy.

 Hi everyone hope you all are doing well?

Most of you know, or I hope you do, that I decided to end my 18-month relationship With my second partner (second partner meaning not my husband), who I met in second life. In a previous post, I explained what led up to my decision. Of course, I didn't tell you everything in fine detail, but I used that post as a brain dump for myself.

I write to process and move on. It's something that I've always done and will continue to do.

I was searching on my tidal today, and I found this really great song by Keith Urban called stupid boy.

At this moment in my life, I feel that that song was written to make him listen to it, if that makes sense.

I have taken bits and pieces of the lyrics that really hit home. By doing this, I am processing and moving on slowly, but surely

some of you might be thinking, "how can it be hard for you to go through a breakup when you have a husband?"

I am polyamorous, which means that I can love more than just one person the same way as I love my husband, so going through a breakup for me is just as hard as in one else going through a breakup.

With that said, I also feel like I can kind of let go faster than others would, but that doesn't mean I stop processing and just move on.

What I process is the feeling of having a life without that person. I process what happened. I mourn the loss and the emotions.

I will leave a link to the post where I talk about the relationship I had with him, and also, I will leave a link to the original lyrics of the song stupid boy.

Well, she was precious, like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands.
And you stole her every dream, and you crushed her plans.

She never even knew she had a choice.
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

So, what made you think you could take a life?
And just push it, push it around?
I guess to build yourself up so high.
You had to take her and break her down?

you always had to be right
But now you lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive,

Your the same old, same old stupid boy

It took a while for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone, long gone

She never even knew she had a choice.
And that's what happens when the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

Link to song lyrics

Link to post about my relationship with him and my decision 

♥Tessa♥