Thursday, May 16, 2024

♥Where Have I been?♥

 A lot has happened since we last spoke, and there are many things I'm still trying to wrap my mind around because my life has suddenly done a complete 180 in the positive direction. I mean, not in a slow way; it skyrocketed into the positive of everything in my life.

I have chosen not to speak about a few things until this point because they initially felt surreal like they weren't true even though they were. It's hard to explain, but I hope that you get what I mean.

In December of 2023, A very close family member passed away. The person passed away from a massive heart attack. Most of my readers don't know this, but I can feel energies and see stuff that is going to happen or has happened. I can go into details about that sometime if that is possible. So, I think it was the week before Christmas I slowly started to feel like something was going to happen within my family, and I had to start seeing signs of this possibly manifesting itself. I woke up one day, and this close family member was missing to the point where a friend of this family member reached out to my family. After a brief discussion, it was decided that the friend of this family would go over and check on this person because he was closer than we were traveling.

The friend of this family member later called and said that it looked very suspicious, and we all decided that it was time to call the police, so we ended the excruciating 3-hour wait. After three hours of not getting a phone call back, we as the family took it upon ourselves to call the police station the man that took our call was very charity until he saw the police report he said that he would call the petrol that had been at the house and that they would contact us. When the person said this, we, as a family, knew what would come, but we waited longer, and about one hour later, the patrol car drove up to our house. I can genuinely say that I have never felt so in shock, and seeing the car pull up like that, it was going in slow motion as the cops exited the vehicle. We all knew what this meant.

The cops were very polite and soft-spoken with all of us. As soon as they came into our house, they said, “There's no easy way to say this, but the person has been around deceased.” I think it took me about four or five seconds to understand what the cops had just said, and my second thought was something personal that I didn't want to bring up on the Internet.

Of course, I cried but didn't cry because I felt sorrow. I cried because I felt incredibly guilty and still do every day. I think I feel guilty because I couldn't possibly do anything to save this person.

The legal proceedings started almost right away, and we as a family cleared this family member's house; upon doing that, we realized that something had been very, very wrong with this person because the house that we stepped into did not reflect this person whatsoever I would say a few days passed by if we went through this person's belongings we started to see the vast amounts of money this person had left my husband. Not only was it a shock for us that this person was no longer with us, but it was also a huge shock seeing the amount of money.

Not to mention the slow but steady realization that we were now multimillionaires because of this person's passing, my husband and I were afraid to think about the possibility of being multimillionaires in case the papers did not show the actual numbers.

But about three weeks later, my husband received papers showing the substantial amount of money this family member had left us; we were indeed multimillionaires.

I struggle with the fact that somebody has passed away, and because of that, I become a multimillionaire. I struggle with that so much.

I don't know if anyone can relate to this, but is it normal to feel this way? Right now, I don't know how to deal with these feelings. If I could put all these feelings into one word, it would be guilt. I don't know how else to explain it.

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Now, on to some lighter stuff:

My second life daughter just turned five months old, which is wild. It feels like I gave birth to her yesterday.

I started staging her a couple of days ago, so now she can do more stuff, like roll around and lift her head, and it's so cute to see her doing that in the country where I live. We have just started going into warmer summer weather, and it's just incredible.

Not only is my second-life daughter five months old, but she turned five months old just a few days before my second-life birthday, which is on the 20th of May.

Fourteen years of steady Second Life are just wild to me. I say steady, but it's been a rollercoaster for me, both good and evil and even horrible sometimes. Yesterday, while my daughter was napping, I spent a little time updating my wish list on the marketplace of Second Life, so I will leave a link to my wish list below for those I feel generous.

 to my wish list 

Of course, I must also plop in a few photos of my daughter using her new bouncer seat. I must say that the Zooby Baby company in Second Life is currently coming up with awesome things for newborns and babies, whereas before, I felt that Zooby Babies and the creator behind it did not release anything new and exciting for the babies or newborns for months and months even years but now I am happy that I got pregnant when I did because it seems that that community, in particular, is on an upswing again.



If you have made it this far, thank you for being one of my readers and sticking by me until next time. Stay wonderful.

/Tessa